Collection of Short Stories

Letter to an ex

Dear ex boyfriend who's name I cannot even say,

I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I wasted almost 2 years of your life.
I'm sorry you had to fix me many nights when I broke myself.
I'm sorry that I clung to you like the world was ending.
I'm sorry you weren't as happy as I was.
I'm sorry... But let me say something else. I'm not sorry for you, I'm sorry for me.
I'm sorry I let myself fall for you.
I'm sorry I let myself break many nights and I'm sorry I let myself run to you.
I'm sorry I let MYSELF waste 2 years with you.
I'm sorry I let myself love you so much I never wanted to let go, even for a second.
I'm sorry I let you be my first kiss.
I realized something, when I was shattered and I slowly put myself back together. I do not need you anymore. I do not regret anything, but I do regret hurting you along the way.
But soon you will regret leaving. I will become beautiful and new, a rose growing in the cracks.
The reason I got hurt so badly was because of who I am, not because of you. I am so selfless, I focused on you and only you. But now there's only me to fix, not you. But you will break too and come back. I won't let you. I will help fix you too, even though I am broken and never going to be the same. I will help fix you.
But until then, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I let myself be with you.

Goodbye,
Emily