Swings {Joshler}

.Seven.

Tyler's pov

Me: it's getting pretty late, I'm gonna go to bed

Josh: goodnight Ty

Me: good night Josh

I turned off my phone and plugged it into the charger. I sat in bed with a smile on my face. Then I remembered I need to change. I'll get in trouble for falling asleep in my clothes again. And I should probably get in the shower too. I kinda smell. I got up and took my shirt off. I went into the bathroom connected to my room. I got a towel and a washcloth and put it on the sink, close to the shower. Then I showered. You want details? That's kinda creepy (I would like to apologize for the fourth wall break and the amount of times I said "I")

I walked back into my room and slipped on a pair of boxers and then a pair of sweatpants over that. Once I did everything I flipped on my bed and fell asleep.

~morning~

I woke up and looked at my phone. It was 7 and honestly to early to look at my phone because it is still dark in my room. Despite me being partially blinded by the brightness of the screen, I looked at my phone to see I had a notification which is strange because none of my friends ever text me, and normally if they do it's to ask me for something or it was a mistake.

But it wasn't them. It was Josh.

Josh: hey! Hope I didn't wake you but I'm bored 😌

Didn't wake me up but still something worth waking up to

Me: hey, don't worry you didn't wake me

Josh: okay good 👌

Me: I have to get ready for school but I'll be back in a few minutes

Hopefully. After it sent I put my phone on my nightstand. It takes me longer than it should most days when I'm getting ready for school, but I'll try to not procrastinate by sitting on my bed for about half an hour. (I can relate to this)

There's not much to do anyways, and I normally don't have a reason to hurry anyways.

*tiny time skip because I'm lazy soz*

I walked out the door and I would have said goodbye to my mother, but she wasn't there, neither was my dad. It's fine. But it's not. The only time they spend time with me is when they are yelling at me for not being good enough or being a disappointment to them. It's fine though.

I was walking in the slightly chilly outdoors wishing I had a car or a ride, but that'll never happen. You need friends for rides. I guess I gave friends but they don't really do stuff for me. It's actually the other way around most of the time. But I can't just leave them. They are my only friends.

Eventually I got to school, on the way I put headphones on and listened to music, it always seems to clam me. Everything bad and good just seems to disappear. Normally when I get that engulfed in my music it's a good thing because something bad is happening, and the beat just calms me. Doesn't matter what beat, doesn't matter what type of music, I just need something.

I went to a table with Brendon and Dallon, but there were a few extra people there. I would say I don't mind but I do, new people scare me and I get so nervous it's hard to talk to new people.

I just want Josh

*okay, the thing with Tyler's friends is they are horrible to him. Please if you are in the same situation, leave. It might not seem worth being lonely but it is. I cannot stress enough how you guys are stronger than this. If they are not there for you get someone who will be. This is from experience. Many things happen between me and my old friends and I kept coming back to them. They were horrible to me. They gave me a low self-esteem. They made me have panic attacks. They made the bad times worse. Please, if you have friends who treat you bad, don't stay. I'm not always here, but I'll try to always be here for you guys ❤*