Josh's pov
While sitting in the middle of class my phone goes off. Would have been nice to know I didn't turn down the volume for the notifications. Half the class looked at me as the clueless teacher kept going on with the lesson. I quickly pulled my phone out of my pocket and turned off the sound for the notifications. After that was done I looked up at the teacher, only to see they were quite busy with the current lecture so I took the opportunity to go on my phone and see what it was.
It was from Tyler.
I clicked to open our messages, none of which we had yet due to me just adding him, but he commented on something on my story. 'I volunteer as tribute!' Goodness. And it isn't the part where I ask for someone to help with last weeks math homework, it's when I jokingly put up that I need a cuddle buddy. Shit. I'd love for him to let me cuddle with him but there's no way I can tell him that
I barely had the courage to slip that paper in him pocket. I've had a crush on him since we were freshman and I've just barely done anything, I wouldn't have even given him my number if it wasn't for that stupid dare I got from Patrick. And now before you lose your shit and start talking about how I shouldn't do stuff for a dare because then your building a relationship on a lie, I was dared to give Tyler my number. Not to ask him out. As much as I'd love to do that, it just seems like Tyler has no interest in me. We've barely started talking.
I just, I'm really scared of rejection and if I get his number we can start off as friends, I really wish we could be more but Tyler doesn't seem like the kind of person who would be into a guy like me, he's just to cute and sweet and shy. I mean shit, I'm friends who go to a party almost every weekend and get shitfaced while I just drive them home and then sit thinking about how this is really affecting me.
Wait, if it's affecting me, wouldn't it rub off on Tyler? I wouldn't want to put anything that negative onto that smol bean, the one that's to innocent for this world. I want to protect him from people like me, not put him in the line of fire, maybe it would be better if we just stayed friends, I guess I get to talk to him but I really can't do anything better, because he deserves better.
~small chapter sorry but thanks for 100 reads frens~
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