New Family, New Step-Brother, and Zayn (Zayn Malik Fan Fic)

Chapter 42: The Funeral

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--Zayn's POV--

"Today's the day." I said to Ally who was attempting to zip up her black dress.

"I wish it wasn't. You know you hear all these stories of adults dying and you think 'wow that's awful', but you never truly feel sadness until you hear about a kid dying. Like that's where it hurts the most." She said, speaking not only of Amber but every other kid who lost their life too early.

"I know, I understand and I'm sorry. I'm sorry about  Amber, I know you were so close to her but think of it this way... she's no longer in pain. She's out there feeling better and there is no need to be sad because she is no longer suffering." I said to Ally, getting behind her and zipping her dress up for her.

"It doesn't make me feel a whole lot better knowing that she was in pain." She said her voice cracking in the end.

"I know but she isn't in pain anymore love, she is finally free." I said, trying to convince her that there was no reason to be sad anymore.

"I know Zayn, I know she isn't in pain anymore but she also isn't alive anymore either." She said, raising her voice a little at the end.

I stayed silently, lightly nodding my head to show understanding. She was absolutely right, it wasn't fair that the only way for Amber's pain to end was the end of her own death. She should have been alive and painless not painless and dead. That was the unfair part of all this, her being so young was only a second factor in how unfair this all was.

"Zayn, can you help me put on this necklace?" Ally asked me, handing me the necklace.

"Of course." I said, taking the necklace from her and clasping it around her neck.

"This sucks." Ally said, grabbing a tissue and wiping a few stray tears away.

"Trust me, I know." I said, sitting on the bed to tie my shoelaces.

"I don't think I can handle this. I mean she was so young and this is so unfair. I loved that girl so much she was like my second child." Ally said.

"If we had a second child." I said, getting into the topic of another kid.

I had stressed to Ally how much I wanted a second kid but she didn't know how she felt about one. I wanted another kid, but now it's the wrong time, with Amber being gone.

"Zayn, we just lost someone are you really going to start talking about bringing someone else into this world?" Ally asked, slightly annoyed.

"No, I'm sorry it just slipped." I said.

Ally huffed and turned back to get something from the bathroom. I would be annoyed with myself as well, it's selfish of me to bring up someone coming into this world when someone just walked out of it. It was selfish of me to think about a new life when we just lost an old, important one. It was selfish. I was selfish.

"Alright, let's drop Ryan off at the babysitter's and then we can head out to the funeral." Ally said, walking out of the room.

"Can you imagine that when Amber was still alive, Gabby was our babysitter and now we have some old woman babysitting our child to go to Amber's funeral? It's so crazy, this world." I said, shaking my head in disbelief.

"I know, but can we not bring up the funeral anymore? Can we just wait until we get there?" She pleaded.

"Okay, I'm sorry." I said.

We dropped Ryan off at the babysitter's home and proceeded in the direction of the funeral. It was going to be a miserable miserable day. Just a terrible, sad day for all of us. For me, Ally, Amber herself, Perrie, Louis, Niall, Harry, Gabby, and Liam. It was just an awful day.

"Hey guys, I'm glad you could make it. Amber would hav e really wanted you guys here." I could hear Perrie saying to Louis, Eleanor and Niall, while we walked over to them.

"I can't believe she is gone." Niall said.

"Me neither, I mean she was only like 16 years old. That is such a young kid we lost." Louis said, Eleanor nodded with tears in her eyes.

"Ally!" Perrie exclaimed, walking over to my distraught wife.

"I'm so sorry Perrie." Ally whispered, pulling her into a tight embrace.

"We both lost a family member." I heard Perrie whisper to Ally, causing Ally to let out a soft whimper as tears streamed down her cheeks.

"Don't cry, please don't cry, Amber wouldn't have wanted to see you so sad." Perrie said.

"It's hard not to cry, she was such an important person in my life." Ally said, wiping her face with her hands.

"I know she was, she was important to everyone here, but just between us.... I think she wanted you here the most." Perrie said which made Ally go into another crying fest.

"Babe come here." I said, pulling her into a tight hug, letting her feel how much I loved and cared for her.

"It'll be okay." I spoke softly into her ear, letting her know I was there for her.

"It's so hard Zayn." Ally cried.

I placed my chin at the top of her head and squeezed her even tighter. I could see Eleanor, Louis, Niall and Harry looking at us two, Eleanor had tears in her eyes and the boys looked upset.

I was upset just seeing Ally in this wreck that she was in, she was crying and she was sad. Just seeing her like this was like a knife going through my heart. I hated seeing her so sad and so upset, so defeated and so distraught.

"Let's get this over with." Ally said, pulling out of the hug and wiping her eyes. Slowly walking towards the crowd of people sitting in chairs. She took a seat and beckoned for me to sit next to her. The boys sat behind us and we all got ready to finish the hard stressful day with stories about Amber and what she meant to us.