Eat.Love.Ride

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I walk in my room and throw off my boots. I rip out my hair tie and fall on my bed. Luna notices I'm upset and jumps up on the bed. She sticks her nose in my face before she lays on my stomach and licks my entire face.

"Luna, get off." She rolls off and sits on the floor staring at me. I get off the bed and walk downstairs to get some food. I open the fridge and try to find food I can make in less than 2 minutes. There is only ham, bread, and cheese. Luna sits down and whimpers. "You are getting spoiled today Luna." I say as I give her a piece of ham.

Luna eats it in one gulp. She grabs her toy and runs over to the couch. I feel my phone vibrate. Guess who it is. Yep, it's Dax. I decide to call him.

"Hello?"

"Hey Dax, what's up?"

"I'm sorry about today. I really am. My parents are gone. Can you come over? We can have dinner?"

"I'm not allowed to use the truck anymore today," I lied. "But you can come over here I guess..."

"Awesome! I'll be over soon."

I hang up the phone. He won't do anything. Carl is home. I can use that as an excuse if he tries to do something. I put my phone down on the counter. I hear footsteps down the hallway. I peek in to see if it's my mom or Carl. 

I see a little bit of black hair. It's Carl.

"Hey Faith. Your mom and I are going out."

"Wait. Now?"

"In 30 minutes... What's wrong."

"I thought you would be home, I invited Dax over." I prayed that he would play the parent card. Say something like I need to call him back and say no. The rule where no boys are allowed when you are home alone. 

He laughs and shakes his head. "You're eighteen. I think you can handle it." He walks back into his room.

I start to consider calling Dax and say that Luna got sick or I need to go back to the barn and check on Lombard. I start to think how sad it is that I am scared of my own boyfriend. I should be able to stand up for myself. I'm scared that if I do, he might do something.

I push my thoughts off to the side. I sit on the couch and cuddle with Luna. She grabs her toy and starts to chew on it and growl. I get off the couch and walk over to the piano. I started playing the piano when I was in fourth grade. I was just messing around and my mom taught me how to play a few songs. Then I started to play certain songs by ear. 

I grab the piano bench and decide to play and sing. I always sing when no one is around. I don't like having people hear me sing. I never thought I was very good. My best friend always argued with me and told me that I am an amazing singer and she's jealous. She yells at me if I disagree with her. So I'm usually forced to go with it.

I start to play Titanium. I always tried to learn how to play the Christina Grimmie version. I play the first verse and I start to hum along. By the chorus I was already singing along to the high notes. I start to get lost in the song as I play and getting wrapped up in the notes. All of the sudden I was able to play without thinking about it. The music was just falling out of me.

"Wow, your singing needs a lot of work!" I slam on the keys and turn around while holding a fist. I see Dax standing behind me with a smirk on his face.

"Jesus Christ Dax! You scared the hell out of me!" I was a little upset that he didn't even bother to knock on the door. He didn't even bother to ring the doorbell. More importantly, the door wasn't unlocked. So he just full on went assassin's creed to get into my house. That made feel a little unsettled.

"So, what do you want to do Miss Faith."

"I was playing Piano before I was rudely interrupted."

"Not my fault my ears were bleeding." I was offended at this statement. I know I'm not the world's best singer and all but I like to think that it doesn't kill anyone. "Let's go up to your room and play video games. Then we can watch a movie or something."

I stand up from the piano and Dax follows me down the hallway. He laughs and grabs my waist and turns me around and kisses me. My eyes were open as he was sucking. He was always a sloppy kisser. He goes on for another 10 seconds before I pull away.

"Are we gonna stand in the hallway all day or are we going to do play video games?" He gets this disgusted look on his face and follows me up to my room. I open the blinds and turn on the TV. I toss a controller his direction and turn the system on. He lays down on my bed and starts to take his belt off and sets it on my dresser. I go over to the bed and sit up next to him. He looks over at me.

He turns off the TV and plays music on his phone. He starts to kiss me again. This time I try to push him away. He laughs and shoots me a smile. I felt the room get smaller. He out his hand on my knee. I realized that no one is really here to stop him. I felt like he was a stranger. 

"I'm going to get some water Dax." I tried to get myself out of the situation as quickly as possible. I walk down to the kitchen and he follows. He grabs a glass and takes some of the lemonade out of the fridge. He walks into my mom's room without asking.

He looks at all of the paintings and pictures on the wall. He gets up close to examine them. He takes a picture off of their dresser and laughs at it. He puts it back down and walks up to me again. He put his hand on the small of my back and started to kiss me. I felt his tongue part my lips. I kissed him back for a little bit.

I thought he would be done. But then he pulled me down on the bed. He started to get rougher.

"Dax, I'm tired."

"Come on, I know you wanted to do this." I try to push him off of me. He pins me down and starts to touch my inner thigh. His cold hand felt like flaming iron entering cold water. I started to think where this would lead to. I started to think maybe I could just get it over with. But I knew it wasn't right. 

I manage to kick my leg up and hit him. I move my arm out from his hand and scratch his face and push him off. He looks down at me with a nasty look on his face as he stomps out. He slams the front door on his way out. I walk quickly down the hallway to lock the door before he decides to come back.

I collapse at the front door and start to cry. Luna walks up with her head down. She lays her head in my hands and looks up at me. I regroup myself and stand up. I walk up to my room and see his belt is still laying on my dresser. I throw it across the room.

Luna sits on my bed and waits for me to sit down. I lay down and she decides to lay on top of me. My phone vibrates and Luna perks her ears. I check the phone. Dax decided to talk. 

"Hope you're happy slut." I start to cry more. Luna gets up and licks my tears away. My phone goes off again. This time it's from Alyce. My best friend. 

"Sup girl." I unlock my phone and go to our thread of texts. I hit the call button while in tears. 

"Hey girl! How was it with Dax?" I start to cry. "I'll be over in five minutes."