What the hell did I ever do..? I mean, sure I'm not the BEST older sister. So what? We all make mistakes. I don't give the best advice. I isolate myself so you think I'm never there, when really, I have no idea what to do with myself and I'm used to being alone. So what do you do?! Feed me shit. Talk random shit at the most fucked up times when EVERYONE is there so EVERYONE can hear what YOU think. And you know what that does to me?! It fucking humiliates me. I WOULD NEVER EVER DO THAT TO YOU IN A THOUSAND FUCKING YEARS, YET YOU STILL DO IT TO ME. Oh, so I'm the horrible fucking sister?? You literally smack me and push me around and I LET IT HAPPEN. I DO THIS TO MYSELF AND DON'T EVEN THINK TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF. YOU THINK YOU HAVE ALL THIS FUCKING POWER AGAINST ME, AND THEN WHEN SOMEONE TRIES TO DEFEND ME YOU'RE JUST LIKE "Cry about it" LIKE IT'S FUCKING NOTHING. IS THAT ALL YOU CAN FUCKING SAY, BITCH?!?! I TRY TO BE THERE FOR YOU BUT IT'S FUCKING HARD WHEN YOU JUST PUSH ME AROUND AND CALL ME NAMES AND CRITICIZE ME EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY OF MY LIFE. I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT. EVEN ON THE DAY OF MY GRADUATION, YOU NEVER SHOWED ANY SORT OF GRATITUDE TOWARDS ME. AT ALL. I WOULD'VE SHOUTED FROM THE FUCKING CROWD THAT YOU WERE MY SISTER, AND YOU MADE IT IF YOU WERE GRADUATING. I WOULD'VE FUCKING CHEERED THE LOUDEST WHEN THEY CALL YOUR NAME. I WOULD'VE BEEN SO FUCKING PROUD OF YOU, BUT I GUESS THAT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU, DOES IT?! CAUSE ALL I AM IS A BEANER, SPICK, APE, CUNT, WHORE AND ALL THOSE OTHER THINGS, AREN'T I?! SO IMA JUST GET OUT OF YOUR LIFE LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED.
And I'll get out of the rest of the family's lives as well because apparently I don't belong to the family, do I?
Yeah... I thought not.
