Phoenix Howell- Goodbyes and Hellos

Dan and Phil

Dans POV-
What the actual fuck just happened. Did Phil actually just...Phil just kissed me...I'm not gay, I love girls but why do I feel like all warm and fuzzy now, and why do I want it to happen again
I look at Phil, there must be obvious signs that what just happened put me into more of a panic. Yes I'm scared to death about everything that's going on, and now I'm sexually confused. Wow Phil, great timing.
Phil stands up quickly as he's scratching the back of his head nervously.
"Dan I am so sorry, I wasn't thinking, it was just...hormones..yeah and the moment and...I'll shut up now. I'm just going to take a walk...sorry." He said blushing. It was sort of adorable. Oh god, what is happening to me.
"Wait Phil," I said grabbing his hand. Butterflies flew through my stomach. I was so confused but I just let the moment happen. I pulled Phil into a hug. When I let him go I said "can we just talk about this? It will help me get my mind off my sister and maybe I can wrap my head around whatever the hell just happened."
Phil looked flustered and immediately looked to the floor.
"Okay" he whispered.
"Okay." I said.
I grabbed his hand once more and I led him to a coffee shop and sat him at a table while I grabbed us each coffee.
"Dan, I'm gay." Phil said, rather confident sounding.
"Oh." I said, sounding sort of dumbfounded.
"You don't have to approve, I know it sounds strange just hearing this now when we've lived together for so long and seeing me go through relationships with girls but those relationships only made me see my love isn't for that gender. I like you Dan. I don't want to scare you and I sure as hell don't want to lose my best friend because of a stupid crush and my sexuality. Please just accept me." Phil spat out.
I looked at him stunned. I did what felt natural. I scooted my chair so that me and Phil were so close that our legs touched. I held his hand and wrapped my fingers around his.
"Dan what are you-?"
"I'm doing what I feel is natural. I'm not going anywhere."
And then I kissed him. For the second time.