Phoenix Howell- Goodbyes and Hellos

Dan and Phil

Dan and Phil
Phoenix had left to go meet Tyde for the evening. Adrain decided to go with her to make sure she got there alright. We were alone in the house again for the time being. We were cuddling on the couch when Dan got an unexpected phone call. It was rare for anyone to call him. It was Louise.
He put the phone to his ear. "Hello?"
I heard some loud talking, almost sounds of crying before Dan sat up.
"What's wrong? Louise, are you okay?"
He pushed my legs off his lap and walked out of the lounge. I heard the bedroom door shut behind him. I waited to hear him get off the phone or for him to call but that never happened. The talking was mostly quiet, other than every few minutes when Dan sounded panicked or mad.
When I no longer heard talking I walked to the door of the bedroom. I held my ear to the door trying to figure out of he was still on the phone. I heard him lean back onto the bed.
"Babe?" I knocked on the door timidly. I opened it slightly, peering in to see Dan laying, his hands covering his face.
"Dan."
"We need to talk." He said. He sounded sad and almost afraid. He moved his hands off his face and sat up. His eyes were red and his face was blotchy and tear stained. I put my arms around him and kissed his forehead. He gently pushed me away. "Don't do that. Not right now."
"Why? What's going on?"
"Phil, Louise is pregnant." He said to me.
"What's that got to do with anything?"
"Phil, the night before we had left for America- before we had even known anything could be wrong with Phoenix-"
"What are you trying to tell me?" I said, I felt like I knew where this was going and I was afraid.
"I had sex. I had sex with Louise. It was sad- it was sad drunken sex. Phil, Louise is having a child. Louise is having my child." He burst out into sobs. "Louise- she said that she's keeping the baby. She wants me to help her raise the child. I can barely even take care of myself. She's going on and on about how her and I could work. She said she loves me and I don't know-" Dan erupted into sobs. I didn't know what to do.
"Phil, I love you. I love you only. I don't want this fucking baby or fucking Louise. I want you. I was lost that night. When we got together I took a chance, it just so happened to be the right one. I had never thought of boys until you came along, you changed everything. I love you, Phil. But I know that I'm going to have to be apart of this in some way. I love Louise, it's just that I love her in a completely different way, I love her as a friend, and who knows if you and I will have children. What if this is my only chance?"
"Stop. No- just..shut up Dan." I was stunned for a moment, not sure what to say. Dan reached for my hand but I pulled it out of his reach. All of a sudden anger just built up inside of me. Dan's tears only came faster when I refused to comfort him.
"How the fuck do you expect me to not be mad, Dan? What was it between us then? Was I just another sad bootycall just like Louise? And it just so happened to turn to something more? How am I supposed to feel when literally the night right before we started being us YOU were fucking somebody. Doing somebody that apparently doesn't even mean shit to you. That's not okay." I yelled. Dan reached for me once more.
"Fuck off, Howell. Just say away from me right now." I said before swatting his hand away. "Why don't you just go fuck your baby's mother?"
I could feel tears in my eyes as I turned away from Dan. I looked for something to throw but the only thing in reach was my phone. I couldn't help it, I mindlessly threw my phone against the wall. The hit was hard enough to make an echoing BANG! in the apartment. I knew for sure that my phone was shattered but at this point I didn't care.
"Phil." Dan said, his voice shook. I ignored him.
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