I heard the knock on the door and I sighed, I had been pacing back and forth the hotel for the past hour and a half.
I opened it and Chibs was standing there with Tig as well.
"Chibs! You were supposed to come alone!" I said angrily but in my mind I was grateful that they were here.
"Well I needed back up just incase you put up a fight" Chibs smirked. I looked to Tig who also just grinned.
"I'm not coming back with you guys! I made my choice" I wasn't going to let them think that I was without a plan. "I'm going back home and that's final"
Chibs just shook his head. "Jax is going out of his mind lass, he got your note" I wasn't expecting Chibs to say that. "He said he only did those things to push you away, the club has been under a lot of stress lately and because of what happened to you he thought he was doing the right thing"
I just looked at Chibs, I couldn't believe what he was saying! Jax was a dick for doing this to me! What did he expect me to do, stick around and let croweaters have a go at me every time he slept with one of them.
"Jax didn't think you would run away" Tig said.
"Well what was I supposed to do!?" I said I was just getting more and more annoyed.
"What did you want me to come up here for lass" Chibs said trying hard to change the subject.
"I wanted you guys to ride ahead of me until I got home, it's just a short drive"
Chibs wasn't buying my story, Tig however just nodded. "It's not safe for you to go back home, your ex is still there!" He said.
"I can tell you now that he is in Charming" I said and this caused both Tig and Chibs' mouths to drop open. "How do you know that lass".
"He has been following me for the past couple of days, Jax doing what he did was the final straw, so that is why I left"
"How do you know he hasn't followed you out here?" Tig said.
"A risk I was willing to take" I said, becoming annoyed again.
Chibs was just shaking his head. I was keeping a secret from them, and I could understand their frustration and I was beginning to not understand my own recklessness, but SAMCRO was driving me insane.
"Chibs can I talk to you alone for a second" I said as I walked back into the hotel room.
"What's up lass"
I took a deep breath and just said it ...
"I'm pregnant, and I'm terrified it's not jaxs' .. when I got taken it could be them"
Chibs didn't say anything, he just hugged me.
"We will sort this out! Lass"
"I don't want to have this baby Chibs!" My wall was gone, no more tough front .. it was gone. I started crying and Chibs just held me tighter.
"I'll be back in a minute love"
Chibs walked off to go and talk to Tig, and that left me to pull myself together. I had to convince myself I was making the right decision, but I was slowly falling into the trap of doubt again.
