After Happy had put a very drunk me to bed, the next morning was incredibly painful! The worst hangover I had ever experienced, as I laid in bed thinking over the events that had occurred last night, I had come to a decision, I was going to leave. I only came back to charming because Gemma begged me and getting away from my old life seemed like a good idea at the time. Knowing my ex was still out there scared me, but staying here knowing that Jax had slept with Tara and probably that lying croweater made me even more scared, I didn't want to run back to him and fall for him again.
Once I had the strength to get up and move, I showered and got dressed. I looked around the room and said a mental goodbye to Jax, I will definitely miss staying in his room, it made me feel safe. But it now also made me wonder where he stayed last night.
I snuck out of the clubhouse and thankfully it was still too early for the guys to be up I drove out of the lot and never looked back. Once I
had pulled up to my house I threw open the front door and began packing, I had decided not to sell this place just in case this whole being on the run thing didn't work out.
Once I had packed everything into the car I sat on the front step and I thought about where I should head to first. But another idea came to mind, I went inside and grabbed a piece of paper and wrote a note to Jax, who knows if he will ever get it, but it was worth a shot.
I started the car and reversed out of my driveway taking one more glance back at my house, it took everything in me to try and forget about the life I was going to start in that house.
I had been driving for a while and I ended up at a crappy motel, I sat on the bed and looked around me I suddenly felt incredibly lonely. I took the supplies out of my bag that I had stopped and got along the way and put it away. I was just about to head into the bathroom, when my phone rang. I glanced at the screen and of course it was Jax calling me. I hit ignore and went into the bathroom.
5 minutes later and Chibs was calling me. This time I answered.
"Hey Chibs."
"Hey sweetheart, mind telling us where you went? Jax is losing his mind here, we are all worried about you"
I rolled my eyes. "Tell Jax he has no right to worry about me anymore, he made his choice"
"Aye, sweetheart I will. But do you want to tell me what's going on?"
I thought for a minute, and then I started to completely doubt myself, I can't be out here on my own now, where am I going to go, my crazy ex is out there and I'm being a coward and running. But I needed to stay strong, I've got this, it might be crazy but I needed to do this. So many thoughts were racing through my head again and were interrupted by Chibs.
"You ok lass?"
"Yeah I'm fine Chibs, I'm heading back home, I needed to leave charming"
"You think that's a good idea?" He said sounding worried.
"I'm not sure Chibs, but I couldn't stay there, but I was wondering if you could do me a favour and come out to the motel I'm staying at I need some advice"
I bit my lip as I knew once Chibs got here he wouldn't leave without me, but I trusted him and I needed someone here now.
"I'm on my way princess"
I sighed and hung up the phone. Now I wait!
