The Runner

Kyle Chapter 15: All Grown Up

I hadn’t realized how mature she had to become ever since she went missing and I thought I was going to be able to ignore it, but it turns out I was wrong because she really it a young lady and doesn’t need to be protected by things because she grew up knowing that no one could save her but herself. I was proud at how well she taught herself but disappointed because I wasn’t there to help her at all and I was there when she needed me I was so sure she still didn’t need me but more that I needed her because something I would never admit was that over all the years I spent she was my hope and strength to move on and keep trying and then that moment at the prison I knew it was her because of her eyes and how much pain they had seen.

I thought I should tell her and ask her what really happened but I was to freighted by the answer she might have giver me because I did want to know but I didn’t want to hear how much they put her trough because I knew that I could have tried to save her but didn’t because I was selfish and I hated myself for it. I just wish she would try to act her age and not like the grown up she had to be because I was worried that if she kept it up I was going to lose her for good and I never wanted to lose her again because I loved my sister and I was scared for her because she was so crave and always looking after others before herself because she has seen the world for what it truly is. A cruel unforgiving place that is filled with hate and violence and I knew my parents had kept her from it and sheltered her so long that she once thought it was only filled with love and kindness and hope. And then she saw the monsters that took it over. But what terrifies me most is that at some point I was once one of them myself.

I knew that if she knew who I once was she would never forgive me and I would have to lie and keep more secrets than I already had to and it was terrible because everything I thought I was, was an act because once you have killed you can never undo it no matter what and it slowly eats away your soul.