Being paul's daughter

Chapter 10

~Old Memories~

Paul's P. O. V

"What did you say!?" She screams.

"That's why Cassie died! Your why Cassie died!! She probably could have held on but she just wanted to get away from you like your mom and now I can see why!!" I screams panting when I'm done. Her furrowed eyebrows fall back down and her eyes lose the crinkle. Her mouth covers into a strait line and her expression is unreadable. It seems as if she can't move or speak.

Everything is silent and my eyes are still locked with Elle's. She just stares at me running her eyes over my face.

That's when I realized what I just said. The muscles In my face fall flat. What I just said hits me like a truck. I can't move or speak or anything, completely frozen by my own words. Why did I say that? How could I say that?

The van stops and I still can't move, but Elle breaks out of the trance and is the first out walking to the back door. I climb out of the car slowly walking.

"Elle I'm sorry," I yell but she just walks faster. "Elle I didn't mean it!" I yell and start to trot towards her. I finally reach her and grab her shoulder,"Elle please."

"Don't you dare touch me!" She screams turning around. Hey eyes are red and her face is stained with tears. My heart breaks at the sight of her crying. I've only seem Elle cry 2 times before, when Cassie died and only one tear when her mother left. Other than that she's been strong.

"Elle I'm sorry I didn't mean-" I start but she interjects.

"Don't you say you didn't mean it, don't you dare. It came out of your mouth and you meant ever last word." She says through gritted teeth. She breaths in a low breath then whispers to me, "I knew you hated me but I didn't know you hated me that much."

She turns around and runs into the arena. I can't move. I can't speak. I can't feel. I can't do anything. I fall down to my knees and rest my head in my hands.

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"She actually think I hate her. She really thinks I hate her." I sigh to Liam in disbelief.

"No she is just hurt so she said words that she knew would hurt you. It's a simple defense mechanism. Like you hurt me I'll hurt you worse." Liam tries to explain. I wipe the sweat from my forehead and rest my back against the cool brick wall on the outside of the Arena.

"You didn't see her face, Liam. I have never seen I more hurt expression in my entire life. I've said stuff that got under her skin before but nothing every as bad as this, not even within the same planet. She's never going to forgive me." I state. Liam shakes his head.

"Your all she has, Paul. She's all you have. To me it doesn't seem like it's going to take long before one of you has to tell a big secret to the other." Liam jokes and I chuckle.

"I don't know, Liam." I Doubt.

"Trust me on this one." Liam assured me. "But first we need to find her and you need to ask for her forgiveness."

"Ok. Let's get this done." I say nervousness evident in my voice. I fiddle with my hands twisting and circling my wrist. Liam pushes the door open and I step in him right behind me. I turn my head in the hallway directions looking for Elle.

I see Harry and he motions towards the bathroom. I take a small step closer and strain my eyes to see in the crack between the door and the door frame. I see Elle sitting opposite of me facing me but her face is not looking at me but something else, someone else. I edge closer craning my head to see who is there with her. Louis. It's louis. I quietly sneak towards the door getting to the right side of it unseen. I press my back against the wall listening for any noise and then Elle's voice chimes in.

"When things are bad we take comfort in the thought that they could always get worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad they couldn't get worse but only better.

Pain is you friend; pain is you alie. Pain reminds you to finish the job and get the hell home. Pain tells you when you've been seriously wounded. And you know what the best thing about pain is? It tells you your not dead yet.

I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles until death." She quotes. She continues talking slowly and precisely making each word perfectly understandable.

I smile to myself thinking about the little girl who loved to find quotes, remember them, and see if she could have the better quote than her father.

~flashback~

"I've got you good this time dad. I've memorized the perfect quotes to take you down." The young Elle said. She was 11 years old that day. Her eyes held no cares, no worries. This was before One Direction, before I had to go away for so long, before her mother left, before Cassie died.

"Alright kiddo, let's see what you've got." I challenge her.

"Families are messy. Immortal families are eternally messy. Sometimes the best we can do is to remind each other that we're related for better or for worse...and try to keep the maiming and killing to a minimum. Rick Riordon." She starts.

"When things are bad we take comfort in the thought that they could always get worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad they couldn't get worse but only better. Malcolm S. Forbes." I spout out the first one that came to head.

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. Dr. Seuss." She's recites proudly without hesitation.

I dig dip into my thoughts trying to find one. "Pain is you friend; pain is you alie. Pain reminds you to finish the job and get the hell home. Pain tells you when you've been seriously wounded. And you know what the best thing about pain is? It tells you your not dead yet. G. I. Jane." I say remembering the lines that my mother said every night before bed.

" I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare. Ned Vizzini." She smirks.

"I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles until death. Thomas Paine." I stutter a bit.

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them-"

~end of flashback~

I let a a single tear fall from my eyes at the thought of those times before walking down to Liam who was only a few yards away.

"I've got an idea. Get Elle to the dressing rooms in 13 minutes, 13 minutes exact got that?" I asks. He shakes his head yes and goes off to the other boys.

"We have to get Elle to the dressing rooms in 13 minutes exact, it's plain time boys." Liam chuckles and starts to chat with the other boys.

I take one last look from a distance into the crack. Elle and Louis are looking at each other breathing heavy. I wonder why they are breathless?

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