Being paul's daughter

Chapter 15

~America~

"I'm officially in America and I've got to go to the bathroom," I say rolling my bag behind me to our van, "but first let me take a selfie."

"O my gosh Elle! why? why?" My dad screams at me. I may have been saying that since we landed. An hour ago. But hey it's not my fault that it took them so long to get the van into a safe boarding place.

"Come on dad, we're making memories, living In the moment, we won't be young forever." I say wrapping my arm around his bulk shoulder and holding the phone up. I take the picture real quick. "My gosh, your actually smiling." I joke with him. He gives me a stubborn look then answers his phone. i groan tired of him being no fun. i turn toward the boys and take a picture of them. Luckily they don't know i am so i catch them doing funny things. Harry making some weird face while scratching his nose, Zayn looking at himself in the mirror, Niall just starring into space probably thinking about food, Liam flexing his muscles and Louis, Louis is just being perfect. *Long sigh*

i can't help it. He is just so--everything. Louis and i have gone on a few dates since the last, not all perfect, we can thank the water sprinklers at the park for that, but they all were amazing in the end. i really do like him. i like the way his eyes twinkle when he talks about his family and when he laughs his eyes crinkle and the cute little smile he does when someone says something funny. sometimes i wonder if he likes anything like that about me . Can i possibly put they perfect smile on his face? I know he is the reason for mine. mine. I want to call him mine.

"Elle, come on it's time to leave.'' my dad says snapping me out of my day dream. I put my camera in my purse and give it to the man who has my luggage. i gather around the boys like i always do when exscorting them out of places. When my dad gives the signal to go we start walking and making our way through the door. Screams erupt through my ears as American fans shout nothings at the boys. they stop and sign a few autographs but we push them along before to long. Finally we get to the van and get inside. the boys joke around about certain fans that they had seen and laugh about posters they had read. I kinda zone them out and get one of my books and read.

The drive to the hotel is to short to get in a good understanding of the chapter but i did get to read a little and being so busy this summer a couple of pages is an answer to my prayers. I kinda do miss just being able to bundle up under some blankets, drinking some tea and reading my books. Even lounging out by the pool was ok.

We pull up to the hotel and luckily there are no fans. I have seen so many fans from the past few months I almost want to barf every time I see them. I mean it's not like I don't love every single one of them for supporting the boys and stuff but when your constantly trying to push boys through a big crowd of sweaty fans screaming, "OMG ITS REALLY THEM!!!"

"ONE DIRECTION I LOVE YOU."

"HARRY PLEASE BE THE FATHER TO MY CHILDREN!"

it gets a little overwhelming and plus the constant amount of people always saying, "Elle, what is she doing with them?"

"why is she dressing like that?"

"why is her hair so big?"

it just gets really annoying and hard to deal with things like that. I mean it takes a lot for me to not punch them in the face right then and there because of my short temper and the fact that I don't like crowds. when you got about 300 people saying that all at one time yeah you just want to throw up.

I have a few supporters every now and then saying helpful nothings but it's so hard to focus on the few positive things people are saying about me when there are so many negatives and all the tweets that I've been getting lately oh my God! you would never know that there are so many hateful people out in the world! like what's so necessary about tweeting, "Elle has a potato face #potatoface"

Really!

Like can you not!

Omg!

It's like the second fudging Mean Girls.

I just like want to go to sleep and that will be the first thing I do when I get up to my bed room.

And it is the first thing I do once I get there.

It's like 5:00 pm and I have major jet leg so A nap is sounding pretty damn good right now. "Hey daddy, I'm just going to go to my room and take a nap." I tell my dad once we are in the lobby. I close my book and look at my dad. I give a quick glance behind him to see louis looking at me questionably furring his eyebrows together in that all to cute way. He can't be good for my health.

"Are you sure sweetheart? the concert will be in 3 hours." he asks not looking away from his phone. I nod real quick taking my key from the woman at the front desk and heading toward the elevator. I don't know what it is but I just want to be alone right now. I step into the elevator and hoping for the doors to shut fast when someone steps in.

I look up from my shoes that I'm scuffing on the ground of the elevator to see Louis standing next to me looking at me with those striking blue eyes.

"Are you ok?" he question a few minutes after silently looking at me.

"Yea, I'm just a little tired from the plane ride,that's all." I lie in the best convincing voice. why am I having to lie about this? I shouldn't have to. what's got me so upset? I feel like I'm about to burst into tears but I don't know why. it's like something bad is happening I just don't know what it is but I can feel the presence of it or something bad is about to happen. what's going on with me? i'm supposed to be strong. I'm strong Elle. that's what I do, I stay strong. I never cry so why do I feel like I need to right now? what's changed my life so much that six months ago when you could call me a bitch and I would not shed a tear but now if you say one mean thing to me I feel like crying on the floor?

"Really?"he ask for his voice full of concern.

"Yea." I say putting on my best convincing smile. he looks like he doesn't really believe it but he doesn't question me any further. I let out a long sigh in my head when he turns and looks back at the door. "Could you do me a favor though and call me like at 7:00 to get up?"

"Yea, sure thing." He says not looking at me. Great I probably done pissed him off. The elevator doors opens and I quickly walk out and go to my room plopping down on the bed and falling to sleep.

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Hey guys so I updated and you have no idea how bad I feel for not updating for so long.

You so did not deserve that and I can't say that I've been busy or anything like that because I haven't. Really I've just been eating my fudge rounds and watching Netflix.

But you guys are the most amazing fans in the world. Now I know every author says that about their fans but those authors are big and have millions of reads and probably don't give a rat hiny but even though you may not think I do but I notice when you follow me and if you are a frequent voter and when you leave those small comments that make my dayyyy!!!

I love you guys SOOO much

And remember

You are beautiful

-Logan 💋💋💋