Being paul's daughter

Chapter 23

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~Goodbye~

"In love, please you know nothing about love." He says.

"And you do? huh. tell me what you know about love. You have never loved somebody and then seen them die before your eyes." I say referring to Cassie. "You've never loved a parent so much but for them to always be out with other kids your age. You've never loved a person so much that you would fight everyday for the rest of there lives for them. Love is a very precious thing to me and I don't just go throwing it around." I yell at him. He seems baffled for a moment before returning to a hard face and walking out the door.

I turn to louis and his face holds a sad expression. I walk up to him slowly not knowing what he is going to say. I touch his shoulder testing to see if he says anything before he pulls me into his tight embrace.

"Everything is going to be ok. I'm going to talk to him and it will be ok." I whisper comforting words into his ear. His only pulls me closer and squeezes me tighter.

"Goodbye Ella." he says.

"what? what do you mean goodbye." I yell baffled by his words.

"I'm mean goodbye, Ella." he says oddly calm. How can he be sob calm.

"No. you, your joking right? I mean i- I love you." I stutter out.

"I love you too, Ella. And that's why I'm leaving. You are going to have to choose between your dad and me and i don't want to make you choose. So I'm letting you go." he says getting up and walking towards the door.

"Don't try to make this about me." I scream as he walks out the door. " Your a coward! you don't fight for love. Your terrified of it." I yell at him in the hallway. People turn and pay attention to us like they would do in the movies. I fight back tears. Your strong Ella. your strong. I tell my self this over and over again but only feel anger at myself when I tear slips down my cheek.

I brush it away fast as the tears fall more rapidly. My feet start to move after him but I stop myself. He said he is doing this for me. How? doesn't he know this is hurting me more than anything he could ever say. He's doing this for me. Please. He's scared of what might happen in the end.

I run down the hallway as fast as possible bumping into to everyone before running into Harry.

" Hey El, are you okay." Harry says stoping me mid run.

"Yea I just got to go." I say wiping the shedding tears off my cheeks. Gosh I'm so weak.

I run past him but I hear his footsteps chasing after me. I finally find the exit and take off running. I nearly run into to some fans but I quickly turn the other way running like my life depends on it. I finally find an empty spot and plop down. My knees are at my chest and I'm sobbing viciously into them.

"El?" Harry's voice rings through my ears. I look up at him with probably blood shot red eyes.

"Yea." my voice croaks out.

"Hey." he says cautiously testing the ticking time bomb that is me. "I'm guessing it didn't go to well."

I scoff. "Please, he said no. I yelled, he yelled. He said I didn't know what love was. I told him he didn't know anything about love. He got mad left. Then Louis said he wasn't going to make me choose between my dad and him so he said goodbye. And now I'm here."

"Wow." he says.

"Yea. I know I shouldn't have said that he didn't know anything about love, but I knew it would hurt him because of what my mom did. And I just said it out of anger." I tell him feeling extra guilty admitting out loud. "It's true but I still shouldn't have said it."

"What's going to happen?" he ask.

"Hell if I know. Louis probably isn't going to talk to me and I'm honestly not going to talk to my dad. I just don't know what I'm going to do without either one of them." I say putting my head in my hands. Louis and my dad were everything. My dad's the only parent I've really ever had and he was only there for me half the time and Louis...

"My nightmares," I mutter into my hands.

"What?" Harry ask.

"I have nightmares. Louis would go to sleep with me every night to chase them away. I sure he's not going to even get close to me right now." I say pulling my head up from my hands and wrapping my hands around my legs. "Gosh, they're so realistic. I haven't had them in so long. I don't think I can go through them again." I say.

"I know I'm not Louis but I can stay with you if you like. Only if it's ok with you and the other lads can stay to." He offers.

"Really?" I sniffle.

"Of course." He smiles. "They lads and I will always be here for you." He says.

"To think just 9 months ago I was wrestling with you on the ground and now I'm telling you all my secrets." I say and he laughs a little laugh. Silence falls between us

The wind is blowing whipping my hair back and forth. The sun is gone and the moon is out. All the twinkling stars shine bright. I wish I was a star. I could shine bright and be high in the sky watching the beautiful things.

"I've never thanked you." I tell Harry.

"For what?" he ask.

"For always being there for me. Your kinda like my brother. Your the one I'm closest to. So thank you." I say.

"Anytime." he says sending me a genuine smile that I return.

I know how bad the situation is right now. I've basically lost the two most important people in my life.

I always tell myself think about how much I have to be grateful for instead of the negative. How better my life is than other people, but that's the thing. It's my life not there's.

99% percent of the people going through bad things can most likely push through it. I know I'm part of that 99%

I'm a strong person and I know deep down in my heart I can get through this. How long will it be before I do, I don't know. I never do.

But I'm sure as hell hoping it will be soon because one thing I'm uncertain of is how everything will end up and if rather know sooner so I can get over it quicker than later.

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