AU Kohona High

Competition..........Please Pt3

Dei pov
I curled up against a tree behind my house. Itachi should be coming soon. I'm already so frickn pissed. Right after lunch I had another mission and cherry head have to ruin my day even more. And when I tried to rant Sasori wouldn't even listen he was too busy staring at Tobi. "Dei?" I looked up to see Itachi's neutral face. "Hai" I whispered. He sat down next to me and crossed his arms. "Naruto likes Sasuke. And I like Kyuu so if we went out Naruto and Sasuke wouldn't be able to. And I really like Kyuu but I can't stand to see my brother suffer. I just don't know what to do." he said calmy with a hint of despair. "Hmmm you've gotten yourself into a tough situation senpai. So you should ask what Sasuke would do. He would probably deny his feelings for Naruto until you start dating Kyuu. Sooo you should just date in secret." I answered 'cheerfully'. He sighed and shook his head. "I didn't come here for advice. I came because I wanted to let you know where I'm standing. Also I want you to tell me what's wrong." Urgh why can't he just let it go. "Ok dude I already told you like fucking a million times that nothing is wrong. Why can't you just leave me alone. Do you not trust me or something? I just wasn't hungry one time and you act like I'm trying to kill myself or some shit." I snapped. He glared at me slightly before turning away. "If it's a crime for caring for a friend then you might as well arrest me. All I want is for my friends to be happy. Do you think I'm dense I see right through you and I know what happened yesterday. Stop acting like it's the end of the world. Just because someone doesn't like you doesn't mean you should hurt yourself. Are you really that weak? Everyone is worried about you yet you don't care. You're being incredibly selfish. I'm sorry that Sasori doesn't like you back. But it's not my fault that you let some little tiny thing like that knock you down. That's just pathetic and stupid." he growled. Why the hell would you say that to someone like me. Who is emotionally unstable. My eyes turned red and I looked down. "Shit. Dei I-" "It's fine. You're right. I am weak and pathetic. I'm stupid for letting small things like that hurt me. I'm crazy for being stuck in the one sided live fest. But I think my biggest mistake was being friends with people would wouldn't understand or have my back. There's no need to apologize for anything you're right about everything. So thank you for opening my eyes." I said smiling at him. I brushed past him and walked slowly all the way up to my room. I don't feel like anything anymore. I'm not sad,mad,happy,confused,neutral,or anything. I'm blank and empty. Why is life filled with deep shit like this anyway. RING RING RING my phone rang loudly. I picked it up hesitantly. Hidan. "Hi Senpai!" I say 'happily'.
"Hey Dei.....um I don't wanna pressure you or anything but....why?"
"Why what?"
"Dude we all know about the 'prank you pulled on your parents but only Itachi knows and he won't tell anyone."
"It was a prank nothing more ok?"
"Does it have anything to do with Sasori?"
"How do I know you won't react the same way Itachi did. How can I trust you?"
"Trust me? Dude do you know how hard it is to not cuss. I know how much you hate it but like we're best friends and we've known each other for like what 11 years or so? You can trust me and if you can't that's ok I guess. Trust is something you have to earn."
"I-I just really need a hug right now. Could you come over please."
"Yea I'm on my way."
I hung up and dug my nails into my arm drawing a little bit of blood. Maybe Hidan can help.
10 minutes later~
"Sorry I took so fucking long. My damn driver popped a wheel. Like who the fuck still does that." Hidan grumbled wrapping his arms around me. "..." I buried my head into his shoulder and silently cried. "I was always unstable. Mentally I mean,and the whole Sasori situation just tipped me over. It was my last straw" I whispered. "What did it make you do?" he asked rubbing circles into my back. "It made me remember all my mistakes and it made me cut. Not because I like pain. But because I couldn't feel anything. It showed I was alive." I admitted. I hope Hidan understands. "Listen you little shit" he said encouragingly. "Don't let Sasori push you over. He's not worth you. You can do much better than him. And I'm not sure what mistakes you made in your past but as far as I'm concerned you haven't made any.". He's wrong. "Don't listen to what others tell you. People care about you. And if you ever need anything....I've got you covered." he finished. "Thanks senpai. Um could you not tell anyone else about this. I'm not ready for everyone to know." he nodded and 'zipped' his lips shut.