The next morning i woke up to the morning sunlight on my face. But it wasn't pleasant, i wasn't feeling energetic, most of all my eyes were swollen from crying the previous night. I threw away my blanket and sat in bed for awhile just blankly staring outside through the window. I could hear the sound of my mom working in the kitchen.
The sun was out but There's been a drizzle so the leaves were wet. I step out of bed keeping my bare feet on the marbled floor. It was cold. I took a quick shower and reluctantly got ready for school.
Once i was out of my room, my mom handed me my lunch, herself ready for work as well. We stepped out of our apartment, got in the elevator and once we were down we took the short walk towards my school.
I just wanted to tell my mom that i didn't want to go in there. Every step i took made me feel as if energy was draining out of my body...But i knew i had no choice.
Once i was inside the school premises i slowly walked towards my class, i just wished i could dissapear. Thoughts kept going through my head, like running away from school or home and living in a tiny tent in the forest, away from all human contact, just me alone. I kept thinking that thought even though i knew that it won't happen because the thought of it comforted me.
I was now inside and just like the previous day Lauren was there along with a group of friends. I made my way towards my seat making no eye contact with her. I sat, looked forward and waited till the school bell rang for the teacher to walk in and start the first period.
And so it did, the first period was quite normal and so was the second. It was finally the interval. This time I didn't stay back in class for awhile. Instead as soon as the bell rang for the interval, I made my way towards the canteen before it got crowded and found a place to sit. I was almost done eating when the canteen got crowded. So i got up from my seat before Lauren or anyone from my class noticed me and quickly walked out.
I thought of walking around the school a bit. To see around and to get to know about it better.
Firstly i just walked on the hallways, Observing the senior students, the ones who were laughing, the ones being bullied, the ones who were alone and the popular ones. It's quite easy to tell actually. Maybe it's just for me though. Am i the only person seeing this? Some of them just looked sad, no smiles on their faces, they looked unhappy. But to others it probably just looked as if they were just minding their own business when they were actually just lonely. I could see right through the tough faces they try hard to put up. It was "hurt" that they were trying to hide. While some of the others had big smiles on their faces, with the "i dont care" attitude. They were the popular ones. There was also another type of people, they were the ones with smirks on their faces all the time, always in a group, has a very egoistic nature and their actions make you doubt if their hearts are made out of stone. Definitely, the bullies.
Looking at them just made me feel very down. Why are people this way?
I slowly turned away and walked away from the senior crowd of students. I kept walking until i ended up in the ground floor. I walked outside. It was green. The sky was very clear and blue with white cotton like clouds here and there on the sky and the sun was shining down. I kept looking at the sky until my eyes started hurting from the sunlight. I kept walking around stepping on dried fallen leaves. I found it very calming. No noise, only the rustle of trees and the blow of wind and the soothing heat of the sun. I walked towards a nearby tree and sat under the shade of it, Observing the silence, when finally the loud sound of the school bell snapped me out of the Calm mood into panick.
I started running because i was afraid that I'd be late for the class and then I'd be questioned as to where I've been. Running up the stairs breathing hard, i finally made it to the class on time before the teacher arrived. But all students were already in their seats. I walked towards my seat and realised that it was taken by another student.
I was a bit confused, but i was pretty sure that it was my seat that she was sitting in. So i walked towards her and politely said "if you don't mind, your in my seat." She looked at me and said with a laugh "is your name written on it?" And she looked away. I kept staring at her but didn't want to argue so i took my books and looked around the class for another place to sit in.
And there it was, in the very corner the last seat. It looked like the place where a loner would sit. I hesitated to go there but then i thought, that's what i am, a loner. So that's where i should sit. And i walked towards it and sat there with my heart pounding in my chest. Life is unfair, the good people never get treated right do they?!
A/N finally an update after a very very long time. Losing motivation to write this book. I might unpublish it but i want to continue writing it as well but just a warning. *Read at your own risk*
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