*2 weeks later*
Shawn has decided he's taking me out on a date tonight. There's no special reason, he just wants to.
I don't even know what to wear. I don't know if it's meant to be casual or dressy. I should just text him.
LindsayFitz: casual or dressy for tonight?
Shawnmendes: up to you but I'd rather you dress up since I'm taking you to dinner
LindsayFitz: dressy it is then
LindsayFitz: time?
Shawnmendes: I'll be there at 6:30, reservations are at 7:30
LindsayFitz: wow that's a whole hour early
Shawnmendes: yes yes now go get ready I know how long it takes you
I switch off my phone. It's now 2pm. I have four and a half hours, I am going to have to rush.
I rummage through my clothes and after ten minutes I have an outfit put together. It's a black boob tube dress that's above the knee with a grey cardigan that's around the same length along with white heels and a small white choker.
I lay them out on my bed and hop into the shower.
I use my coconut scented shampoo and conditioner to wash my hair. I then wash my body and shave everywhere.
I'm finished after thirty minutes and I hop out, wrapping my hair in a towel and my body in another towel.
I throw on leggings and a t-shirt for now.
I play music from my phone thus connected to a speaker in the process and sing along every so often.
I grab my hair drier, hair straighter and my comb and hair brush and begin to attempt fix the tangled mess on top of my head.
Once my hair is done I move onto
makeup, this is where is gets serious.
I start off with primer and a colour corrector to get rid of the redness on my face.
I then do a natural eye look and fill in my eyebrows, I then move onto my face makeup.
I'm finally finished and I check the time and see it's 6:10, I'm just in time to actually change into my outfit
I slip on the dress and cardigan, making sure not to mess up my hair since it took a long enough time to get it straight enough.
I throw on my heels and tie my choker.
I make my way downstairs and see my dad and Melissa in the living room and Craig and Charlie in the kitchen. Carl must be in his room. Sabrina is in her playroom.
"You look fabulous, Lindsay." Melissa gushes as I walk in.
"Thank you." I thank her and she gives me a hug.
"What time is he gonna be here?" My dad asks and I check the time, it's 6:25.
"In exactly five minutes." I tell him before heading into the kitchen.
"Woah where are you going." Craig asks me. I grab a glass and fill it with water.
"Out with Shawn." I tell him and he nods his head.
"Where to?" Charlie asks me.
"Some restaurant I don't really know." I tell the two boys just as I hear a knock at the door.
I can hear the door opening and Melissa talking before my name is shouted out.
"Shawn's here." Melissa tells me and I say goodbye to everyone.
*
We're at the restaurant and we have just been put at a table. It seems really fancy I almost feel underdressed.
Shawn looks good, he's wearing a dress shirt and tie along with black skinny jeans and his black boots.
I look through the menu and decide on the steak. Everything here is so expensive.
"What do you plan on ordering?" I ask Shawn and he sighs.
"I'm stuck between the steak and the lobster." He tells me and a laugh. He's never been good at decisions.
"Well I'm getting the steak you can have some of mine if you want both so bad." I tell him and he smiles at me.
"Thanks." He says and a waitress comes over. She takes our orders and leaves again.
This is all so amazing. Shawn is so perfect I don't know any other guy that would even imagine taking me out to a really nice date without expecting sex or something.
I don't want to have to leave Pickering and Shawn. I want to stay here and stay with Shawn but that can't happen. In two weeks I'll be back in school and Shawn will be doing a tour a while after Ieave. I don't even know if we're going to do long distance, I don't even know if it's possible. We've avoided the topic this whole summer. We became a thing without thinking of the consequences and heartbreak but I don't regret it. I just want answers on what me and him will become.
"Shawn?" I ask and he looks up.
"Yeah?" He replies and I take a deep breath. "Are you okay?" He asks, taking my hand from across the table and squeezing it tightly.
"It's just.. I've been thinking.. what are we going to do when I leave in two weeks time?" I quietly say and I look down, I don't know why I couldn't have waited till tomorrow to say it rather than bringing tension to the table during our date.
"I mean if you weren't in school I would ask you to come around for a while since I'll be touring for four months, then back for two weeks, then touring for another two months, then home for two more weeks, touring for a final two months and back home. But I'll be most likely moving to LA. Tour starts a month after you leave." Shawn explains and I feel the tears brimming in my eyes. "I mean, you're getting pretty famous too and you have your manager begging you to go to these auditions for movies and TV shows and modelling gigs. You know you're going to end up leaving here soon too. We're going our separate ways and it sucks. I don't know if we'll be together when you go home in two weeks and I start tour soon. I'd love for us to be together but long distance is so impossible." Shawn tells me and I nod my head, agreeing.
"But we can try." I suggest and he shrugs.
"Look let's just drop the topic for now I promise we'll talk about it tomorrow I just want to enjoy our date for now." Shawn says and I just stay silent. "I love you okay?" He tells me. He leans across the table and gives me a kiss.
"I love you." I tell him.
I decide I might as well forget about the touchy topic for now. Shawn has gone out of his way to do this and and I should just enjoy the date.
*
I'm home from the date. It went well after everything, there was no tension and it was all amazing.
We made out in his car for a solid ten minutes but we didn't want to take it further. We decided the car won't happen again considering it was way too uncomfortable.
I lock the front door and make my way up to my bed.
I throw off my dress and shoes and remove all my makeup. I put on an oversized t-shirt and switch off the lights before falling into a deep sleep.
