The Whitlock Twins (Bella and Edward Story)

Chapter 12: Control

Edward's POV

  "I love you", Bella said. Then she went limp in my arms. "Why did she pass out?", I asked quickly. I have never been around a vampire that has passed out. As vampires we can't physicaly pass out. "Lucy used all of her energy so she crashed", Peter said. "Has this happened before?", Jasper asked.  "Only once. She had had a bad day, remembering the day she killed ya'lls parents. Lucy came out until she passed out. She didn't lash out or anything, but trying to make it more bearable for Bella to go through. There isn't a day that she doesn't think about it", Peter said. 

   Alice gasped. "What is it Alice?", Jasper asked. I saw what the vision was. Bella would wake up and she would run. She would come back with crimson red eyes and beg us to kill her because she was a monster. After we denied her request, she would go into a deep depression.

  My Bella would not have to go through that. I would help her. I didn't tell Jasper exactly what happened,  but gave him a shortened version. He knew I was keeping something from him, but left it alone. " When she wakes up we have to keep her with in our grasps. We can't let her get away",  I told him. We sat by her bed until Alice told us she was going to wake up. We went to her bed side and held on to her arms and her legs.

  When she awoke she fought against us with what all she had, which was not much,  but we got her outside and took off till we found something she could drink. We found three deer and a mountain lion. It seamed to quench her thirst,  but we kept a close eye on her though.

  Later that night we were waiting for Bella to come back from her walk when Alice went into another vision. Bella was on her walk when there was a man near by that had been attacked by an animal and there was blood every where. Bella tried, but she could not stay away from it, not on her own. She had drank from the man, came back home, and tried to leave saying she was a disgrace to this family. She would end up succeeding. My Bella needed me. She would not be able to control herself and then she would say she was a monster. I would not let her think of herself like that.

  I ran as fast as I could to stop her from attacking that man. When I had found her, she had smelt the blood and was racing to get to it. I was able to get ahold of her, but she was stronger than I would have thought possible. She trashed against me trying to get to the blood. I knew if I was to let her go she would hate herself, so I held onto her. I picked her up and I carried her back to the house. She thrashed, growled, and begged me to put her down. When I walked inside Jasper was at my side at once. "Did she do what Alice said?", He asked with hope in his eyes that Alice was wrong. "No. I got to her before she got to him", I said. "Damn it Edward! Let me down!", Bellas shouted. "Now I know momma didn't raise you to curse and hollar like that", Jasper scolded. Bella hung her head. I could hear her crying. I hated this, I hated seeing her sad. I could tell that Jasper was trying to make her happier, but it just came back at him. "Come on Izzy. Let me in", Jasper cooed. "I failed, I failed again", Bella kept muttering.

  I went to the sofa and sat down bringing Bella onto my lap. She put her legs on eaither side of my hips, and clung to me like a five year old. She cried into my shoulder and sometimes my chest. Jasper could feel how depressed she was. The self-hatred, and the failure she felt. He tried several times to get into her shield, but she would always block him out. I hated seeing her like this. She blamed herself even though I know she could not help it.

   When she had finally worn herself out, her sheild came down. I was able to see what she was troubling herself with. She kept thinking of her parents lying on the ground, completely lifeless, the blood drained from their bodies. The bit marks on their necks indicating what had happened. Bella had killed her parents. No. Not Bella, Izzy. Izzy had killed them, not caring what they ment to Bella or Jasper. Izzy let Bella back to see what she was capable of. What she had done, continuously telling Bella she was the one who didn't stop it. That Bella could have saved her parents, could have saved herself all this depression, and the guilt of killing who she loved. All I knew was that Bella had not killed her parents, and that bella was not in control.

A/N: I am sorry I have not updated this story recently. I have had some major writers block on this story. I hope you all like this chapter! Please Vote and Comment and questions or concerns. Thanks,

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