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I AM SUPPOSED TO BE LAID BACK FOR THE TITLES BUT OHOHO GUESS FREAKING WHAT????????

SAMUEL DID NOT FREAKING MAKE IT ON THE FINAL CUT

WHAT THE HECK MNET

W H A T  T H E  - - - -

I  A M  S O  M A D  R I G H T  N O W

A N D  S A D

L I K E  R E A L L Y  S A D

I FLIPPED AND RANTED TO MY MOM ABOUT IT LIKE, I DO NOT DO THAT I USUALLY MIND MY OWN BUSINESS AND RAGE SILENTLY BUT OH HECK NO

I WAS BANGING THE HEADBOARD WITH MY HANDS SAYING 'WHY???? WHYYY?????????? WHY????!?!?!?!?!?!?' REPEATEDLY AND GOOD GRIEF IT WAS ALL I SAW ON MY FACEBOOK FEED

IT MADE ME SO EMO LIKE WHAT THE PADGE

I AM NEVER CALMING DOWN AT THIS POINT

YOU ALL WANT TO KNOW WHY?!?

BECAUSE CHOI FREAKING SEUNGCHEOL, FATHER OF FREAKING  SEVENTEEN, FATHER OF FORMER PLEDIS TRAINEE KIM SAMUEL, FREAKING WATCHEkD THE FREAKING FINALE

AND HE DIDN'T FRICKIN MAKE IT LIKE WHAT THE HECK

I AM ABOUT TO CRY

AT FIRST WHEN I SAW THAT SEUNGCHEOL CAME TO WATCH THE FINALE I WAS, TO PUT IT, ECTASTIC LIKE I GASPED AUDIBLY AND LIKE,

MY SLEEPINESS WORE OFF

BUT THEN OHO I OPENED MY FB AND SAW A MEME OF HIM BEING THERE FOR 'MUEL AND I SCROLLED DOWN AND SHOOT I SAW THIS PIECE OF AGONY

LOOK AT HIS FREAKING FACE CAN YOU HEAR ME RAGING

I.... It's just that, he worked so hard 😢 and he didn't make it 😭

I mean, he has so much potential but MNET didn't see it... I have supported him since the start (even though I only get updated by fansites, I don't watch the episodes), and it hurts so bad to find out that Kim Samuel, supposed-to-be maknae of Seventeen, who worked so so hard to debut as one of the traineees of Wanna One, did not make it. If you saw the pictures, it was, so obvious and evident that he was sad! He was so disappointed in himself that he didn't pass and, (author-nim: I'm really sad, no joke I... want to cry but no tears) he looked so tired! sO TIRED!

'why her son always has to go through this pain'

I am officially soft in a bad way

I am moping send help

KIM SAMUEL IS VERY TALENTED. BUT UNFORTUNATELY!!!!!!! SOME PEOPLE DO NOT SEE THAT! I. AM. LOOKING. AT  YOU. MNET.

I am salty right now

like so salty and sad and angry and petty and all these overwhelming emotions

I... just need to voice this out! Like I always do! Even if Kim Samuel won't see it.

*Inhales deeply* Kim Samuel. You are one of the most talented artists out there. YOU are SO, SO, DESERVING. ALL OF US, YOUR SUPPORTERS, KNOW THAT. You have so much potential. You deserve to make the final cut, and I need to tell you to set your mind to it. Even in MNET didn't do it. Just please remember, you did your best. Your very painful, heartbreaking best. And the best is always enough because there are people who love you, and think the same, that you should have made it.

I knew you even before I stanned Seventeen. My friend told me you looked just like your Hansol-hyung. And I knew you used to be a former member, so I supported you. I supported you with all of my CARAT heart. I saw how you grew up to be a very handsome and talented man. Even though I'm younger than you, I feel so proud that you came this far. SO FAR.

Don't ever think you're not good enough. You are more than enough, Kim Samuel, more than you will ever think you are. Don't ever think that you aren't doing enough, that you are not deserving. Because you are very special. Your hyungs love you so so much. Your Seungcheol-hyung loves you very much. We all love you very much. And I hope you know that.

I also hope you know that, in our hearts, you are number one. Brave Ent. truly believes that you are number one. Seventeen believes that you are number one. There are many opportunities waiting for you, just wait. I know that there will be a right time for you 😊 Kim Samuel fighting~~~!

I can't prove my point right now because I am thinking so much ugh 😖 I just want to let him know that he doesn't have to be sad

so yeah, congrats to the trainees who made it to the final cut! Kang Daniel, Park Jihoon, etc. I hope you flourish like IOI did!

Actually I thought that Jihoon would be the center, but wow, Daniel just- wow so proud

see you *still sad*

-Kwon Sadhyun