The Meaning Of Pain

Chapter 4- Mean Girl

I am so annoyed. Like, so annoyed. Annoyed with a capital A! In fact, annoyed with EVERY LETTER CAPITAL. How dare they? Mikey and Riley are little brats. I hate them. And now, I have to sit with those sad, demented people who sneezer into their food. Gross! Which is why I haven't been eating lunch at all, and the office have put me on these tablets to help my health. I am now a very small 4 stone, which is apparently very dangerous for somebody of my age. Like I care! I personally think it's good. Most people eat nothing or a hell of a lot of junk food in this place. I'm the only average person. I have breakfast in room 201 and dinner we have around the campfire. I'm starting to treat this place a little like Home, seeing as I am stuck here for two more months. To be honest, the time has flied. It has already been June and July. School doesn't start until the end of September, but that is still pretty soon!
Ugh. School without Tia. My precious darling girl. I remember seeing her the day she died......
*Flashback*
"Hey." Tia smiled at me.
"Go away Tia. Your just annoying." Lucy groaned. Tia no longer smiled but frowned. "Yeh just get lost please." I said grumpily. Tia ran off crying. She ran home.
*Flashback ended*

WARNING: THE NEXT SCENE HAS SUICIDE MENTIONED. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

It is so sad how she died. She should of died holding my hand, in our shared apartment. Not at her age, slitting her wrists with a shaver and bleeding to death. And also drowning. It's so sad. And it's my fault. It's my fault her mother had to climb up the stairs because her daughters blood was overfilling the bath and the water was dripping down the stairs. It's my fault she killed herself.

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"Ruby? Are you ok?" I heard Mikeys voice. What the hell did he think he was doing in my godamn room? This was supposed to be my main escape from that idiot and his brat of a sister. It's not like I have a blimming welcome mat above my head so I? I'm gonna have to look in the mirror now. "What do you want? I glared at him in the mirror. "Look, Rubes, I'm sorry." He looked honest and a hint of sadness showed up, but I shook my head. "Sorry? Your sorry? Sorry, hard, but sorry ain't enough!" I rolled my eyes. How thick was this dumb doofus idiot brathead butt face? "You read the files. You knew what had happened to me, what made me come here. So instead of comforting me or being quiet about it, you decided to read about it in the news and then watch the suicide scene of thirteen reasons why and joke about it, pretending Hannah's name is Tia. It's not funny, Mikey. Killing does kill. It's not just a show. That show was made to show awareness of bullying, and instead it caused a whole new way of bullying. The book is fine, it's a book yeh, but the visual seeing it.. It's unacceptable. Your scared for life." I breathed heavily and knew that I was sounding like a councillor, but I don't give one. He deserves it all the help he can get. "So you know all this about me, but I know nothing about you. Your name is Mikey, your sister is Riley. Your age is 17, and I'm 16 and we WERE mates." I shouted. He sighed." Are mates, Ruby, we are mates." I shook my head and pointed to the door. "Go. Please. Just leave." I whimpered. I didn't want any pain. I had had a hell of enough this year.
He nodded. As he was leaving, he puts an arm round my waist and the other on my cheek. "Mikey..." But before I could even finish my sentence, he was kissing me. It was sweet and intense. And so so right. No. So so so wrong. He has a girlfriend, you div. I seriously hate you, brain. I shove him hard in the chest and he falls over my bed and lands on the floor. "Woah..What the hell was that for?" He looked angry. Tears started to fall from my eyes like raindrops from clouds. "Oh rubes.." he whispered. "Get.Out" I screamed my voice now hoarse. He runs out as if scared. I lay on my bed and let my emotions run wild.

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