Surviving

Chapter 3

Chapter 3: Appoligies

It’s lunch now, and ever since David grabbed my arm I can’t get his image or the feel of his hand on me through the fabric of my hoodie out of my head.  Those beautiful blue eyes and his lean, muscular figure towering over me. You could see everything through his tight white v-neck.   He had the style of a traditional scene kid.  I need to stop thinking about him like that, I mean I don’t even know him and I already want him!  But I know he would never go for me.   I’ve never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, I’ve never even been out with friends or to a sleepover.  I’m just…not normal.

 I sighed out loud at my revelation about myself.  The halls were clear now, all the kids at lunch.   Although I don’t go to the cafeteria, my time is spent in the library working on school work so I don’t have to do it when I get home. 

Home.

I don’t want to think about that right now.  I open the double doors to the library to be greeted by the familiar smell of old books.  The quietness is my only peace.  To my right is the check out desk and in front of me are 20 rows of books.  Every topic you could think of they had at least one book on it. They had tables scattered around the entire room so I picked one all the way in the back where I was sure to not be bothered. 

I had been so distracted by today’s events I had forgotten about my bruises and accidentally hit my back too hard on the chair.  I clapped my hand over my mouth to quiet my cry of pain.  My back ached at any type of physical contact. 

The paid had subsided but was not fully gone, but I pushed it to the back of my mind and worked on a paper for my English class. 

The rest of the day passed by quickly.  David had almost every class with me aside from gym and my free period.  It was awkward for me seeing him in all my classes and he didn’t look away from me once. I would really like to know why I’m having all of these feelings.  He’s the first person to ever give me a second look or better yet make little shocks go up my arm.  

Maybe I’m just crazy.

I found myself halfway home before the fear started to sink in, I was still barely healed from the last beating I got.  The same black car from the parking lot zoomed passed me proceeding to drive through a puddle splashing me.  Just great.  And just because of my luck the wind started to pick up chilling me to the bone, I mean come on haven’t the fated done enough?  I can’t catch a break anywhere!  My clothes was now sticking to my skin making it harder to walk.

Through the mist of my rambling the black car had pulled over.  Oh, the fates are cruel today.  I just pulled my hood lower to hide my face and kept walking even though david got out of the drivers side.

Wait a minute.. David?! Oh, no no no no. Why me? I was practically jogging away from him now, do you know what would happen if Rus or Jenni were to see us together?

“Hey! Wait, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to splash you. Please to walk away from me!” He said, cleas desperation seeping through his voice.  How could I refuse?

I slowly turned around to face him.  His features filled with worry and sadness.  I was almost positive that he couldn’t see my face, but somehow still managed to still recognize me.

“I never got your name.” he said.  I could see that he was thinking hard right now whether to come closer or stay where he’s at.  “It’s Allison.” I mumbled while turning my gaze towards his car where the two boys from class were sitting.  Great, an audience. “Beautiful.” I snapped my gaze back to him to find him coming closer.  I almost didn’t hear what he said.  “I-I have to g-go.” I told him in a hurry and with no time to waste I turned and ran the rest of the way to my house.