changed

lunch time crisis [5]

adilyn

"Over here Adilyn!" Alissa shouted through the cafeteria, beckoning me over to the table she was seated at.

The day had gone pretty fast, but random people were giving me weird looks all day for some unknown reason. I decided to just shrug it off. Who cares if they stare?

"Hey," I said, giving Alissa a small smile as I placed my tray down on the lunch table.

"You need to hear this!" Alissa exclaimed.

"Hear what?" I asked confused.

"Lily's has been spreading rumours about you and Neels."

"Like what could she possibly be saying now?" I replied. 

"She said Neels' only friends with you because he feels bad for you and doesn't want to hurt your feelings since he's your only friend," she explained.

Why would she even say that? I have not said a single bad thing towards her and suddenly she's going around saying all this shit. I know I lack friends, but all those people that hang around her probably don't even consider her a friend. Why would I want people to keep as company when I could have a real friendship with an actual bond?

"Do you believe it?" I asked, hopeful. 

"Well... Neels is one of the populars and you and me are just the outsiders so..." Alissa trailed off.

"You really believe that?!" I said, the hurt evident in my voice.

"Of course not!" Alissa replied shocked,"I'm offended you think that I would even believe what she has to say for a second."

"Oh, I thought you actually believed that bs." I said truthfully. I was relived that my only friend wasn't going to turn on me.

"That's good to know how low you think of me," Alissa said, offended that I thought so little of our friendship.

"No I don't mean it like that!" I reassured,"it's just that... I've never really had a real friend who would be on my side if anything bad happened—other than Neels."

"It's okay Adilyn, you don't need to explain yourself." Alissa said as she burst out laughing.

We sat there at our table talking about everything, any little thing that popped into our minds. This is what I liked about having a real girl friend. How I could just talk to her about anything.

Growing up I never had many friends. Middle School was the worst  years of my life, which was when I got bullied most, but luckily Neels was there to stand up for me. Soon after that everything died down and my bullies finally stopped and left me alone. I was really thankful towards Neels ever since that day. 

But I know in this society, there is no ending. Everyone's walking around with masks on their faces, hoping and craving for something perfect, but they don't understand they're perfect already. Everyone's craving for something that doesn't even exist.

They all act as if they're perfect, rich and popular. Popularity is just an illusion, it doesn't exist, it's just what we all want to see. They're all fake, no ones as perfect as they seem to be in photos on social media. Those photos can be edited, faked, yet people in this society think it's amazing, perfect. Nobody is.