Ever wondered why the people you love just randomly pick up and leave? Why they never give you a real reason for their departure?
While their gone you're left picking up the pieces, hoping that one day they'll come back; back to how it was.
Leaving...
"maybe one day, she'll look into his eyes, & instead of breaking, she'll call him mine."
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♡Adilyn's P.O.V♡
"Welcome home, Adilyn," Mum said when I just walked in the front door, "Care to explain what you've been doing for the past three hours you were out?"
I could tell by the look she had on her face, that she was angry and hurt I didn't tell her where I was going, but I honestly wasn't in the mood.
"I was out with Neels," I lied, and continued to walk towards the stairs.
She doesn't need a reminder of my father. It's best if I just don't say it at all. Telling her I was out surfing would make her wonder if I was really over what happened. And in all honesty, I wasn't.
"Then you should've called or something, I've been worried sick for the past three hours!" Mum yelled, concern laced in her words.
"I'm sorry, Mum. I promise it won't happen again," I say giving her a reassuring smile before walking into my room.
I prayed that today was all a dream, that there was no little argument that made Neels chose her over me, but I know that'll only make it hurt more.
The only words running through my mind were:
"you're not pretty enough, smart enough, and especially not good enough and never will be."
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I woke up the next morning to my usual alarm clock. I didn't get much sleep last night, the words kept ringing through my mind and the constant reminder of Neels face was imprinted in my forever mind.
The sad part is that it's the truth, that's why it hurts so much.
I look out my window to see if Neels was up, but not to my surprise he was still sleeping peacefully. His window was wide open, wind gushing through peacefully.
I need to stop checking up on him if he didn't even bother with me, so with that I closed my window quietly and pulled close my white curtains.
Making my way to the bathroom I brushed my teeth and hair before getting ready for another day of school.
Today I decided to wear a large thin white top under my baby pink sweater oversized sweater and some blue shorts. Kicking on my white Vans before leaving my room. Not bothering with makeup today because who cares?
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When I was done I checked the time one last time to see that it was already 7:34AM.
I quickly made my way downstairs to find Mum cooking up a storm, making cheese and bacon croissants.
"Morning, sunshine" Mum said offering me a warm smile as she checked the oven.
"Morning," I said trying my best to give her a decent smile, but I just couldn't.
"I made you a bacon and cheese croissant!" She said cheerfully.
"Thank you," I said, avoiding all eye contact.
"Well eat up, you've got school soon," Mum said taking the croissants out, placing them in front of me,"I've got work now so hurry." She placed a kiss on my temple and rushed out the door, coffee mug in hand.
I sat at the table, slowly chewing on my delicious breakfast, trying to cut off any thoughts of Neels and her.
When I finished it was almost time for school so I got up and grabbed my backpack, making my way towards the front door.
As I was walking towards my car I turned to see Neels getting in his, he looked good, but I have to remember what he did to me and why I'm avoiding him.
"Hey Addie," I heard him say.
How could he? Act like nothing even happened?
How he chose her over me!
"Don't call me that, you don't deserve to anymore," I muttered and got in my car, and started to drive away.
I could see his hurt expression, but he did this to himself, there was nothing Neels could possibly do to make me forgive him, as much as I want to.
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The school day flew by as I barely paid attention in any class. I did the same as I always did, ignore everyone, but this time it was mainly Neels and her, hangout with Alissa and Kade at lunch, then go home.
I didn't go to school to make friends, I went to go get a education, making friends was just a bonus of school I didn't want to partake in that much.
Once I got home I saw Mum, she looked stressed, like she wanted to tell me something, but didn't know how.
"Mum?" I said catching her attention,"Are you okay?"
"Addie, I have something to talk to you about," she said and led me to the living room where she sat down and motioned me to do the same.
"What is it, Mum?" I asked, not ready for what she was about to say.
"You're father contacted me," she said flat out, unsure what my reaction would be.
"No," I said coldly, not wanting her to finish, memories flashing through my mind of him walking out, ignoring my cries for him to stay.
He hurt me, he hurt her, he hurt us. And now after seven years he thinks he can just walk back into our lives with open arms?
Well he was wrong, so damn wrong.
I hated him for leaving us, but I hated him more for what he did to us. We were all so happy once upon a time.
He promised me he would never leave us, but they were all just empty promises.
"He says he's sorry, Addie."
"And I'm sorry for not ever being good enough to make him stay," I said turning around, tears on the verge of falling.
"I'm sorry for making you think that way, Adilyn," a familiar voice said from behind my mother, one I wished I would never have to hear again.
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