It was all for you (a BVB fanfic.)

Die for you

I walked around the house and found Andy asleep on the couch, i covered him with a blanket and made some tea.

Andy came up behind me and wrapped his hands around my waist, it scared me and i thought it was some random so i turned around and punched him in the face. "OMG ANDY IM SO SORRY BABY I THOUGHT YOU WERE AN INTRUDER OR SOMETHING" i said, he just chuckled and held his nose. "Its alright sweetie" he eventually said.

He walked to the fridge got some milk and made a coffee. The phone rings and he answers, "Brooke its for you love" i walk over to the phone, its Hayley.

Fuck..

*phone call*

Me: Hello Brooke speaking

Hayley: uh hi Brooke

Me: Hayley?

Hayley: yeah hey sis haha whats up?

Me: Hayley cut the crap why are you calling?

Hayley: Somethings happened

Me: What?..

Hayley: its mum.... She died...

Me: i'm sorry what?!

Hayley: look i gotta go, i'll call you tomorrow bye.

*end of call*

"A-A-Andy" i stutter. "Yeah. Hey hey whats up? Whats happened?" He answered.

"My mum..s-she died"

"What? When"? Andy asked

"I-i don't know" i replied and walked upstairs. Walked into my room and slammed the door shut.

I honestly don't know how to feel, i hated the things my mum did to me but she was my mum...i still loved her.. I still wanted her to accept me for who i am..i just, i wish this was all a dream and i'd wake up and walk into that front door of my house and find Hayley crying like i did 5 months ago.

I texted Paige. Our mum actually liked her.

Me: hey um Hayley just called and said mum died...

Paige: didn't she tell you about dad as well?

Me: WHAT. No why what happened?!

Paige: he died sweetie...a week ago..

I didn't reply. I was shocked. My whole world has just came crashing down... I reached under my bed for that yellow box and pulled out the sharpest razors i could find.

With each cut, i cut deeper hoping i would just die. With everything thats gone on these past five months is just to much. Andy and i confessed our love for each other and then he went off with Bree, being raped 15 times by my step brother, unlikely for me to have children because of him, seriously. Everything thats happened, i take it as a sign that I'm not supposed to be here anymore.

I continue cutting, just going deeper and deeper until my arm is covered in blood.

I move to my other arm and begin cutting there too.

Fat

Ugly

Worthless

Not good enough

Suicidal

Self harmer

Not loved

Emo

Outcast

Satan worshiper

Bitch

I didn't want to be here anymore. I really didn't. I ran to the bathroom and forced myself to throw up. I wiped my mouth and went in our cabinet for some pain meds when i came across a rope.

This is it.

I can finally be truly happy, Andy will be happy, he won't have me to worry for, CC will be happy, he wont have to deal with me texting him at 3 in the morning when i can't sleep, Ashley will be happy, he won't need to deal with me calling him and crying to him every time i was upset, Jake and Jinxx will be happy, they won't need to carry me around every time i was injured, Sammi will be happy, i won't drag her out all the time anymore.

Everyone will be happy. They wont need to deal with my pointless dramas. They'll be fine. They were fine when they didn't know i existed so why will it trouble things now?

My arms are completely covered with blood now.. I have 10 cuts on my right arm and 8 on my left arm, 5 on one thigh and 6 on the other. I was finally going to be happy. I was happy with Andy but i constantly felt i wasn't good enough for him i just wanted to be the one he looked at and thinks 'god shes beautiful'. I wouldn't have to live anymore, this will be my happiness, this is my happy ending.

I grab the rope and tie it to the pipe above the toilet. I tied a noose at the end of it and stood on the toilet seat, about to take my last breath. I grab the noose and put it around my neck. This is it. No turning back. I stood there for a matter of 5 minutes just thinking of everyone i will miss, CC, Jake, Jinxx, Ashley my gorgeous outlaw, Sammi, and well of course Andy.

I'm on the toilet seat about to jump, i know that Andy will have to find me when he needs to pee or have a shower. It broke my heart knowing he'd have to see me like this but i had no choice i had to do it.

"I'm sorry Andy, i love you so fucking much, it'll be okay soon, i promise my love, we will see each other again one day, we can be together and be happy, but in another life because this one is just not for me" i whisper as tears pour from my swollen eyes.

I wiped the tears away and just thought about Andy, my love, my man, my saviour, my rebel, the man who has helped me so much, i just i had to leave i couldn't do this anymore. I took my final breaths. This was it. Suddenly the only thing i could hear was my heart beat.

And with Andy on my mind.... I jumped.

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