...Is More Than Enough (Something More (JSE) Sequel)

Chapter 17: Sleepless Nights

Suzy almost dropped the plate. "Wow, Dan..." she didn't really know how to react.

"I know, I know, it's terrible. 'she's already married, she just had a baby' n shit, but I loved her before any of that. I didn't have the heart to do anything about it, she seemed so happy with Jack. I never saw her enough to say that 'I loved her' before, but the past while I've seen her non stop, and it just hurts because now I know I can't do anything about it."

"That's rough..."

"Yeah, well, it is what it is. As soon as Jack gets better, she'll go back to him, and she'll only be a coworker, who is just a friend. Sam will have his actual father, and he won't need me to look up to or give advice to, everything will be as it should be."

"Not all of that is true. You never know what the future brings, and Sam will always look up to you, you are Danny Sexbang, you are Not So Grump, not to mention a fantastic uncle, he will always think to go to you for things."

I looked over at Suzy and let my face welcome a smile. No matter how I love (y/n), I know my place. Now I realize that she needs me, maybe not as a lover but as a friend. Sean needs her more than I do, and she needs him. Sam needs a father as well... I'm just silently hoping Jack comes to and realizes everything he's lost about himself.

"Thanks Suzy... that really means a lot. I just want Sean to be there for her, the sooner the better." We finished the dishes, and it was getting late. Everybody said bye to Y/n and went home. Barry and I got into the car, and he asked what Suzy and I were talking about. I told him it was nothing, just simple work conversation. The rest of the ride home was kinda quiet and awkward. As soon as we got home, I locked myself in my room and wrote down some thoughts and song ideas, I listened to some music, I did a lot of things to keep my mind off Y/n, but none of them worked. I'm definitely not getting any sleep tonight.

Mark's POV

I'm sitting alone in my room for the first time since Sam was born. Bf/n is out in the living room with Sean. Something happened to me when we went back to Signe's place to get Jack's things. I never thought I would see Amy again, even if it was just a quick glance. She's been on my mind ever since. I don't know what to do. I love Bf/n, I truly do. But it's just.... Amy. I keep opening up my contacts and going to message her, but then I stop myself. My life is already messy enough with everything else going on. I don't want to mess things up with Bf/n, she's going through so much right now, I don't want to hurt her. And if I talk to Amy, more than likely Signe's bound to get involved somehow or three. All the sudden, my phone went off. I looked to see who it was, and believe it or not, it was Amy...

A: Hey... long time no see...

M: Yeah, I guess so.

A: I couldn't believe it when you showed up at Signe's, she couldn't believe it either, that her plans got unraveled that easily. But in my opinion, I'm just glad Jack's on the right path now.

M: Yeah. Well, I wasn't expecting "Mary" to be who she was ya know, if I had known, I could've had a prepared myself to see you, I never thought I'd ever see you again, Amy...

A: I know, and I'm sorry Mark, for treating you the way I did... It's just, we were so young, and I haven't had the chance to live my life yet. We were fresh out of high school, I wasn't ready to settle down when I haven't done anything yet. But hey, look where it got us. You became a huge YouTube star, you've saved thousands of lives, you found Jack, Bf/n and Y/n. I certainly haven't done nearly as much as you, but I am successful, and most importantly, we're both happy. I'm proud of you, Mark.

I smiled and thought about that last message. We may be going through a lot, but in the end we'll all be happy again. Once we get settled. Before I could answer the text, Bf/n opened the door and sat on the bed.

"Whatcha doin, sweets?" She asked, putting her arms around my shoulders and kissing my cheek. By this time I had already shut off my phone and laid it next to me.

"Just checking this and thats. Where's Sean?"

"Oh, he went to his room, he said he just wanted to be by himself for a bit."

"Is he alright? Did you two have an argument?"

"No, no, everything's fine, he just said he needed to spend some time alone with his thoughts. He's probably just stressing again about not knowing who he is, and being broken up from Signe. Poor guy, I'm worried about him, but how else can you expect a person to react to the situation?" I started getting up. Bf/n grabbed my wrist. "Wait-" she said, I ended up on top of her, kissing her. "Where are you going?" She said, giving me another kiss.

"I have to get Jack out of the dumps, we're going out, he's gonna have the time of his life." I gave my wife one last kiss and got off the bed. I ran down the hallway and burst open Jack's door. I could've knocked, but I didn't think about that. We have places to go and things to do, we're not getting any sleep tonight...

Jack's POV

"Mark?? What's the matter?"

"Let's go."

"What??"

"C'mon, Sean, grab a jacket, we're going out."

"Okay? Where are we going?"

"We'll find out when we get there." Mark said, smirking. I smiled back, grabbed my jacket and followed him out to his car. For a while, we just drove. I talked, and he listened.

"... I just don't know who to trust and who not to trust at this point. I feel like I can't even trust myself, how can I when I don't even know who I am?"

"Well, Sean, you can trust me. Just know whenever you feel alone, or upset, I'm only one room away. And I'm always here to help you if you want to ever try to find out more about yourself and your past. I'm here for you man." We pulled to a stop and we shared a moment of eye contact. In Mark's eyes I could see nothing but love and passion. It was a look I've never seen before. It was a look I enjoyed seeing. My eyes started to well up.

"Thanks, Mark... I really appreciate it. I don't know where I'd be without you." We got out of the car and met at the back. Mark looked at me with those eyes again, and I couldn't help but hug him. He returned the hug, and we embraced each other for a long time. Then something inside me snapped. I kissed him. But the weird thing was, he kissed back... We kissed as if we had a long history together and we were just getting back together. Wait a second... Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit! I pulled away. "Mark.... I-I'm" I could barley choke out the word "sorry" before I got back in the car. But this time instead of the passenger seat, I sat in the back, wiping the tears from my eyes. I can't believe I did that. He's married! I can't be falling for him, I didn't even know I was bi! I don't know what happened, I guess I just broke from all the stress, and that face sure didn't help... Mark got back into the car.

"Look, it's going to be okay, we're going to be okay. You have nothing to be sorry for, alright?"

"Bf/n's gonna hate me..." I said in a whisper, trying to keep my voice from breaking.

"She doesn't need to know."

"But..."

"The girl has enough on her as it is, this can be our special thing, you have nothing to sorry about. If she does find out, and all hell breaks loose, you will not be to blame, I'm sure of that."

"Alright..." I was quiet for the rest of the way home. I didn't even get to notice where we went, I was so caught up in the moment. I honestly don't know what to think of the situation, but it is what it is. This is defiantly not how I expected this night to turn out...