Time Really Shows (Phora)ON HOLD

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Mia POV

The car ride with Devour was silent but I knew I should just walked. It wasn't even that far in my perspective, I don't know why I called him probably to annoy Marco because he can make me jealous when he is around destiny. How dare he say he actually have genuine feelings for me but can't even understand why I'm mad at him.

 I technically became a liar because of him and I hate it. I changed my personality and who I am as a person for someone who I thought would have treated me better. I was just a game for him and it showed. I was the one that had him at nights but she was his girl and I was just someone to keep him company.

 I didn't want him to become this rapper that would just have sex with any girl of his choice and leave him, even though he had a girlfriend who was loyal to him. I let myself fall into that situation, knowing that we will never be nothing the past wasn't us anymore and I knew I had to realize that. He wasn't him anymore, its crazy how a bit of fame can change someone. He was nobody and suddenly he became this well know rapper. He started from the bottom and now he lost himself.

"So you were with him?" Devour said parking the car to the side of my house. "Not like that. He showed up, I was with Maria." I explained although I didn't need to.

"Hmmm, I know we never were nothing and I wish I never introduce you to Phora, but I liked you a lot before you knew him I cared for you and I know you had feelings for me." I stayed quiet. I didn't have feelings for Devour back then and not now/ He was just a really good friend and yeah its true, without him I wouldn't have met Marco but that wouldn't change anything. We would have never dated. 

Devour was so different way back, he was clueless and would always get at females for the wrong thing. He loved the looks, the body, the pretty face, butt, boobs. But never for the inside. I would never get with someone like that. I wanted connection and surprisingly I had that with Marco although it changed. "I was going to asked you out but, Phora beat me to it. I disliked him for that, lowkey I did. That's mainly the reason we fought and don't talk anymore." They fought for me before? He had to be lying.

''I was at your brother Danny too. He told me to not get at you, that you were different unlike so many girls. I listened for a bit I have to admit but when he let Phora get near you I did lashed out on him.'' I looked at him surprised. ''We didn't fight mostly argued but it stopped once I left this this place. That was the only argument I had with Danny. Just for fucken Phora who isn't nothing but a fucken loser.''

''Stop, I don't want to listen to this right now I need to go I'll see you around.'' I got off his car and went inside even more confused. I didn't know whether I did good or bad with Marco I just needed to be alone and away from drama and arguments and all these mixed up feelings.

I watched my mom sat down watching me intently, I wondered if she knew that someone was in here last night. Once I got more near my eyes were stunned and not in a good way. My eyes water and I had this knot in my throat. How dare he show up after all this time. After all the damaged and sacrifices we had to do because he basically gave up on us to forget us and fulfill his own happiness. ''What the hell is he doing here?'' my voice elevated in a bad way. I hated him and I blame his for everything he caused us. I ignored his presence because he was invisible to me.

''Calm down Mia he just wanted to see how we were doing.'' My mom said like nothing but I knew she had resentment towards him. I looked at him and if eyes could kill he would be dead right now. ''Why are you even worried about us now?'' I was confused I haven't seen this man in several years. ''I know you're mad and you should be, but I changed myself okay? I'm trying to be a better person and a father for you.'' I couldn't believe him at this point he wanted throw some weak bullshit story to me and it wasn't working.

''You aren't my father. It's too late for that. I can't forgive you this time.'' I said with such hatred in my voice. ''Mia just listen to what he has to say-'' My mother started off.

''Why should I?'' I turned to face her she was really taking his side. ''Sorry but its going to take me several years to even considering you back in my life.'' I said sarcastically throwing shade his way. How can someone wake up one morning and decide to forget you and move on like you were nothing important in their life. ''You can go back the same way you left.'' I said walking past him to my room. This day has been worse to horrible. I faced Marco and 'my father' in one day. I locked my door and turned off my phone not wanting to be disturbed by anyone at this point. My life was a disaster and it wasn't even getting any easier as I hope.

Phora POV

I was barely getting inside my place and seen Destiny sitting on the couch. I mentally regret giving her an extra key. She wasn't my wife, just my girlfriend, she needed to stop acting like we were so serious. I was not ready to slow down, I still wanted to live a little and she was making that sort of impossible.

''Well look who's back. Did you have fun with her?'' she said lifting herself up from the couch to follow me to the kitchen.

''I wasn't with her.'' I said opening a bag of chips and eating them. I just felt like munching out since the blunt I smoked always made me feel like that. Just like old times. I smirked to myself, ''You were with her just admit it!'' she yelled getting in my face. I hated how she got near me, I wasn't even in love with her, and I don't know if I ever was. ''Yeah I was and what?'' I said just giving into what she wanted. Her hand came directly to my face slapping me on my cheek.

I grabbed her hand and held them down her waist. ''Calm down.'' I said. ''Fuck you'' She spat tears slowly falling down her face. ''Why would you cheat on me? I hate you.'' I stepped back and let her hands go. I didn't have much to say. I did cheat. I did, at the time it didn't felt like I cheated because it felt so right. I was so selfish thinking about myself only. I sort of realize what Mia was saying and feeling too. I didn't like making people cry for my fault, for my actions and I felt worse even more.

I got close to Destiny and hugged her. Surprisingly she hugged back. ''I'm sorry, I'm sorry.'' That was the best I could have said. She nodded and wiped her tears, ''I'm going to go...I need time to think.'' I nodded and watch her leave. What was I doing? I never liked making people cry and I'm not like this. I looked in my fridge and pulled out a bottle and started drinking. Once I was done with that one I got another one just to ease and forget everything for a bit.

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Author Note; Hey always thanks for reading and guess who's going to see Phora tomorrow yours truly!!! I'm so excited and not just that I get to meet him. You know your girl had to get V.I.P tickets and well I can't sleep too excited. I'll let you know everything about the concert.

-Thanks, Phoraheads!!!! Let me know if you are going to or a different date.