Don't Disappear

Chapter 1(DEH)

Trigger Warning : Mentions of suicide... stay safe Teddy-Bears!!

Evan-
"Umm... Miss Fleming, may I please use the restroom?" I asked, hoping the quiet despair would end of just staring out the window of the classroom full of people who would rather be as far away from me as they could, and anyways, I have to meet my friend Jared. 

"Of course!" she replied cheerfully, how is she so cheerful all the time? I walked out of the classroom, checking the clock before returning my eyes back to the ground, scared to look up at someone who hates me, so everyone pretty much. I walked down the hallway, towards the light blue door, waiting. And waiting. And waiting.

Finally Jared showed up five minutes late, "Miss Fleming i-is going to be upset with m-me if I am late to the all school assembly," I stated concern filling my voice. "It's okay, dude, I got this," he replied reassuring me. "Okay, you're my only f-friend so it's not like I hhave anything b-better to do," I said. "Family friend," he corrected. He sat on a sink in front of me, I could swear I heard sniffling from the last and biggest stall. "Okay, so here's what's happening," he started. I sighed, "W-why do we m-meet in bathroom stalls in 3rd p-period everyday, again?" "Because, I'm a crazy fanboy and even though I don't think you and Zoe Murphy would be a cute couple, I like being the best wingman of all time," he replied, I started to blush madly, when a sudden noise came from the last stall.

"Who's there?" shouted Jared. "Crap, let's get out of here, sit next to me at the assembly we can continue there," "W-wait, s-someone's crying," I pointed out, "Yeah, my future of being teacher's pet, by being in here for to long," he replied grabbing my non-broken arm, "Like you had a stake at being teacher's pet, the l-last time you did your own h-homework was 3rd grade," I said, pulling him to the last stall, "Hey open up, we're not going to hurt you," he  shouted, a noise sounding like a 'no' between sobs. "F-fine, I'm going under," I replied. "WHAT!" they both shouted. I crawled under the stall which was hard with a broken arm, and I was surprised by who I saw, I couldn't even talk. I opened the stall for Jared.

"CON-mmm...!!" shouted Jared, through my hands clasped over his loud mouth. "Y-your going to get us in t-trouble," I whispered screamed. "Are y-you o-okay, Connor?" I asked concerned. "Why do you two nerds care?" asked Connor. Jared hugged him, "I-I.." he started, "Shh, don't say anything," I replied. Jared let go, "You're not alone," I said staring at my arm.

"Just tell me what's wrong, I can tell, you haven't told anyone yet," Jared stated, "I tried getting help, I literally told my dad 'I'm dying from a mental illness,' and all he said was 'Well hi, dying from a mental illness, I'm your father, sadly,' what type of father does that?" he asked. "And anyways I can do it tonight, and not like you weirdos can stop me," "No, we can't , but your sister can," replied Jared making a good point. "You mean, Zoe, your funny, my sister, wouldn't believe you weirdos," he said.

"All students please report to the Gymnasium immediately!!" Principal Gowan boomed over the intercom.

"Okay, we're going to continue this later," Jared stated, "Come on, we need to get our bags, I'll make a hall pass,"

~Time skip brought to you by the awesome musical "Come From Away"

We crept into the Gymnasium, Coach Adams stops us, "Where have you three been?" he asked, "We we're all on a hall pass," Jared replied handing him the pass, he eyed us suspiciously. "Okay, get up there," he stated.

"Yes sir!" Jared replied in a singing tone, Connor and I looked at him like really.

"So you never do any of your school work, b-but you still strive to be teacher's pet?" I asked whispering.

"I love your new shirt Miss Fleming," he called out toward Miss Fleming. "Oh, Jared, thank you, your such a sweetheart," she replied.

"Yes, bro, don't you read my blog?" he asked. "Dude, I don't blame him, only helpless people read your blog," Connor replied, reaching out for a high-five from me. We walked up to the top row. I saw Zoe starring at us as if scolding at Connor.

"Good afternoon, Westerburg High School, I called this assembly to remind you that the computer lab is open after school hours, and tutoring and counseling is open if anyone needs help. Umm, so if Jared Kleinman, if you could come up here please, and everyone give your attention to our one and only Jared Kleinman," our principal stated, Jared looked back at me and smiled giving me the finger guns, he high-fived and gave fist-bumps to everyone while walking down the stairs as if he was a super star. I face palmed myself, only Jared, Connor looked at me as to make sure he wasn't imagining it.

"Hello, Westerburg High School..." (Connor pulled out his phone to start video taping), "I'm making a club for anyone who wants to learn about the kinky lives of the founding fathers," ("Gay!" shouted who I would have guessed Rich from the crowd) "So umm... signups will be this Thursday in front of the cafeteria," he handed the mic back to the principal and dabbed. He's such an idiot.

"Wow! That was amazing now thank you all for coming, and except another assembly coming soon, and enjoy your lunch and the rest of the day!" the principal finished.

"C-c-come on guys, I can't be stopped by Miss Fleming, s-she's going to kill me," I concerned them. "Evan! Evan Hansen! Wait up!" she called out, I gave Jared a light glare. "Uhh, yes Miss Fleming," I replied getting ready for detention. "I know, why you left to "use the restroom", and I think your an amazing friend for helping your best friend Jared Kleinman, at the last second for his speech for the assembly," she stated. "You caught us," Connor chuckled. "Well, next time you guys can just tell me, and I will help you three," she offered. "Oh, umm, thanks Miss Fleming!" I replied, she walked off and started talking to our principal, "I-I'm going to k-kill you guys," I told them when we were out of earshot of Miss Fleming.

"B-bathroom now!" I whispered pulling both Connor and I into the closes bathroom, "Okay, if you say so," Jared said smirking, Connor looked at him suspiciously. "Why?" asked Connor. "Ugh, do I have to tell you, I mean..." he started but cut off at Jared's look of really. "I'm mean what's the point, I'll never live up to the expectations, and the person I love will never love me back," he replied. "You're not the only one, I mean I'm a pancake," said Jared. "What?!" I said confused. "And little Evan over here is in love with your sister, Zoe," he said messing up my hair. "N-n-no I'm not," I replied blushing a bit. "I'm sorry to break it to you but even if you did like her she's gay. And if you don't like her, then who do you like?" asked Connor, I swallowed hard, "N-no o-o-one," I replied, "let's go," said Jared, and we headed out of the room.

~Time Skip Brought To You Some Random P!ATD Songs That Everyone Loves, "This is Gospel" starts playing~

Jared and I were walking home, joking around, "Hey dude," he said. "Yeah," I replied. "You're in love with Connor Murphy, aren't you?" he asked, and everything stopped.

Author's Note:
Hey Teddy-Bears, how was it? Umm, let me guess, "KINKY!" okay I'm glad I got that out, now did anyone see the references? Oh I'm also using Westerburgh high school, the same high school from "Heathers", I know I'm a nerd, and I don't know about you, but I really want that to be cannon. Oh and I want to thank greekgeek11213 for the ideas of Jared being pan and for him being the best wingman ever. Also you can follow greekgeek11213 and my joint account where right now we are writing too many oneshots to keep up with at BurningBathbombs . So thank you all for reading, and comment anything and everything. Oh and have a good day/night, until the future, Teddy-Bears, I'm out.
~Han

(1461 words) ;)