The mortal instruments: truth or lie

Chapter 33

I made my way up tie Clary's old room. I heard giggling coming from the other side of the door. I recognized one laughter. I missed that laugh so much. Just hearing it even for a little warmed my heart. I Didn't  know who the other laugh belonged to. But I knocked anyway. As soon as I did the laughter stopped and I heard shuffling. My head hung low as I waited for her to open the door.
"What?" she answered in a huff as the door swung open.
" I just wanted to talk" I said in a low voice feeling ashamed just by being in front of her. I didn't know why I felt like this I didn't do anything wrong. She rolled her eyes and moved to the side so I could walk in. I looked around the round everything was exactly the same since the day she left. My eyes made it to the bed where I noticed her son sitting or should I say our son. I still didn't know the truth about that. Who was his father? It was another vital question I had to ask her. I stopped in front of the boy and bent down so I could be eye level with him.
"Hi I'm Jace what's your name?" I asked him.
" my name is Christopher" he said with a smile on his face. I smiled back at him. I knew clary was standing behind me and was studying every action I made. I stood back up and looked at her and I finally asked the question I wanted to ask for so long.
" why did you leave?".
She tilted her head to the side and said " I needed to. For him. For Christopher."
" why I could of helped you" I pleaded while I grabbed her hand.
" no you couldn't" she stated as she pulled her hand away and walked towards Chris.
" he's my everything and I needed only the people who truly loved us to be aroun" she stated as she ruffled his hair.
" I loved you. I still love you." I stated as I walked up to her and cupped her cheeks with my hand.
" and I love him" I said before I kissed her. The kiss was filled with love and devotion. I knew I missed her but I didn't realize how much until I kissed her. After awhile she pulled away to catch her breath and she looked at me with no emotion. I couldn't tell what she was thinking. She pulled away from me completely and sat on the bed. She whispered in to Christopher's. He nodded and exited the room. She watched him until the door closed behind him. Once she knew he was gone she got off the bed made her way towards me and slapped me. I was too shocked to do anything.
" Don't ever do that again" she said with Venom in her voice. I looked at her and asked her why.
" because you know what you did. Why do i have to come back her to my best friend's wedding and deal with you. Thinking you can go around kissing people. You know what it wouldn't be a first. So I shouldn't be so surprised." she snapped.
What the hell is wrong with her I said to myself. I wouldn't dare say it out loud.
" what happened to you?" I asked.
" I woke up" she said circling me.
" I no longer let a man define me" she stated.
"When did you ever let a man define you?" I asked.
" everytime I did something you or Jonathan asked. Everytime I did something just to please you" she spat.
" I didn't mean to make you feel that way" I retorted.
"Whatever" she said as she walked out the door.