"We're Just Friends."

Im Broken Without You

-2Weeks Later-

2 weeks had past and I've heard nothing from Kyler.

I've been soo depressed.

I haven't gone to school.

I haven't been eating.

I only get up to shower and then I get right back in bed.

I Cry And Sleep.

I Sleep And Cry.

My parents are worried.

Dad more than mom.

Only because mom kinda understands my relationship with Kyler more.

Dad canceled that dinner because of me and he said he'd reschedule when I was "Feeling Better".

He says it as if I have a cold.

My heart is broken.

And only Kyler can fix it.

I'm sure Bradley knows but I haven't talk to him.

I don't really talk to anyone.

I have 68 unread texts and 49 missed calls.

I don't want to talk to anyone but ky.

I gave up trying to call because I'm pretty sure he turned his phone off.

I just still don't know what I did wrong.

The thing with Jace was just....I don't know it meant nothing.

I mean I got guys numbers before in front of ky.

He never freaked out like That before.

I don't know what's up.

I honestly have been wracking my brain trying to figure out what it is.

And as his best friend I feel helpless and stupid because I can't figure it out.

I feel so sad.

Like if I had a gun right now I would kill myself.

That's how deep it is.

I'm broken without him.

I love him.

But I can't love him like THAT Because I'm not gay.

And neither is Kyler.

"I can't explain it" is what I've been saying for years.

But maybe the explanation is right in my face and I just can't see it.

Or maybe I'm too blind to notice it.

Or maybe I'm too in denial to notice.

I don't know.

It's 11:54 and mom comes in my room to tell me goodnight once again.

"Baylor? Baylor are you awake?" Mom walks in slowly like she's afraid to talk to me.

"Baylor honey are you feeling any better?" Mom asks.

"Baylor, I know you miss Kyler. But I'm sure he is fine." Mom tries to cheer me up but fails miserably.

How does she know that Kyler isn't laid out in the middle of the street somewhere dead?!

"Alright honey in going to bed. I love you soooo much. Me and your father do. And Bradley. And I know for a fact Kyler loves you. In what way is up to you and him though."

I look at her.

"Alright well I'm just saying. Goodnight honey." She kisses me on the cheek and then leaves my room.