Love Between Twins

I Want To Protect U

SEUNGRI pov

this was the baddest and harder day in my whole life . My father is dead now ..., Jiyong died , mom died ,...even the last one died . What I'm going to do now . I won't be able to live . I don't have someone left . I cried so much after Jiyong died . He is dead because of me ...and mom ,..suicid because of me . That killed me so much , it hurted me to see the people that I love and they only love me go away from me slowly 

and now dad ...that was all because of that choi seunghyun . That bastard who kidnaped me before . If he love my dad and he used to love him . Why the hell he kidnaped me . I hate my life ....no one will love me . I'm just asshole that all people think my mom and my brother died because of me .

and I took all of this . I tried to love anyone . Even I know that person is using me . But I wanted anyone to love me ..., I wanted someone feel my pain . And make feel that I'm not alone . But I was wrong ...everyone just pretend loving me cause I'm rich . 

But I didn't like that fact . Since my last boyfriend broke up with me . And I don't know why I fall with anyone . Is that because I need someone beside me . And feel me , understand me . Is that hard to have someone like that . 

Of course I'm an asshole who all people will think now I'm cursed and killed all my family ...but I saw that GD ,...he was about to kill me yes . But I saw that he was so sweet when we met at hospital . I cried so much and I know that no one will be beside me . But he was there to calm me . He felt my pain . He was the one that understand me . 

Top orderd me to go home with taeyang , but I refused . I won't never enter that house again . He surly will torture me . I can take all the suffer and pain .., but not this !! 

When we arrived at top's mansion ,...taeyang hold me from my shoulder cause I felt dizzy . Top slapped me , and didn't even take my medicine . Should I die and let it go . I really was tired from all this . 

But suddenly taeyang pushed me inside the room and told me not. To go out till that fucken top tell him what will do with me . That shit top , he now blow everything . Even him treating me like shit . I want someone to hug me , and tell me that every thing is okay . But there wasn't . I cried so much now remember dad face before he died .

it hurted me so much , but suddenly ....I saw two pictures of my mother and of Jiyong 

I didn't see them since 6years ago . I burned them to forget them but ,...now ,...here in front of me . I saw Jiyong photo looking me . It hurted me so much . Sounds started to hit my head . Jiyong voice , mom voice even my dad . " seungriah ...why did you left us ? We are living happily here " mom said and I started to scream I went to the door and it was locked . I couldn't go out . " hyung !! ..where are you ? You said you are going to play with me ? " Jiyong voice spoke and I was crying like crazy . I was shocked from what I was hearing . Is this a dream or what ! " seungri ...when you are ready . Come to us , we are waiting you " dad said and I couldn't take all this . 

" Please go away !! ...I don't want to here anything " I shouted and the voices became more louder in my head . I thought I was going to have heart attack if I didn't go out from here . " let me out of here !!! ....please I'm begging you !! " I cried so much but no one heard me . I knocked the door hard and still no one answer me . 

Im just like a shit for them . They making me suffer more and more killing me with all this . I cried and scream to make anyone open the door . I felt someone hold my hand . It was my brother Jiyong . It made me so scared that Im imagine him . I couldn't breathe when I saw Jiyong smiling to me . And go away when the door open . 

I rushed running fast out of the room when the door open . I hugged someone , I was so scared I could now breath hardly . I felt his heart beat fast and put his hand on my head , hugging me tighter . " yah .., are you okay ? " he asked and I started screaming