Love Between Twins

Breaking Up

GD pov

i wake up in the morning feeling so dizzy , it hurted my head so much . i looked around and saw alot of empty wines bottels . and i remembered what happened , tears falls on my cheeks when i remembered the way seungri kissed jiyong . and i never had kiss from him . he never kissed me . i was the one who keep pushing myself to him . 

that's make everything clear , he love jiyong . and ..and i can't stand in front of jiji's happiness . that's mean jiyong doesn't love taeyang ? ,..so why the hell they were kissing . is this a joke or something ? why when i found the one who take my heart don't love me ? 

i think ..i think  i will live all my life like that . everyone love me just cause i'm rich . but they don't really love me . i could finally find someone who don't care about my posision , and care about my feelings . but now ...my feelings and my heart are broken badly . this is the first time i feel hurt like that . how can i forget him ? ...will i be able to forget this . 

how can i will see him everyday with jiyong . holding hands ? kissing ? hugging ? or even having sex ? i get so angry again and started to break the empty bottels on the wall and the ground . the broken glass cut my hand . but my heart was broken more . and the hurt in my heart much hurt  than the hurt in my bleeding hand . i punched my chest to calm till i fall on the ground crying . why it hurt so much ? ...why i can't be strong like before ? why i'm so weak ? 

i can't even breath . why i'm crying ? .." you fucken idiot !! ...you are the reason to make me like this !!...why can't you see my heart !! ..why !! why can't you feel me ? ...am i that bad for you  " i cried loudly and i didn't feel the power even to anwer my phone . it was jiyong and it hurt more that ..i can't speak to him . cause i'm the fucken brother who tried to take his lover .

JIYONG pov

i was shocked when seungri kissed me ! what the hell he just did ? " seun- seungri ah ..what did you just do ?" i said when i break the kiss . 

" i'm ..i'm sorry hyung ..but i can't stay calm like this . i love you !! ..and this was the only way to show how much i love you ! " seungri cried . i felt worried about him when he couldn't breath suddenly . " okay calm down ...just breath ..don't worry i'm here with you ...we will talk about this later . have some sleep " i said and i wipped his tears , he closed his eyes and i went out fast 

taeyang will kill me for sure if he know what happened . what about GD , where is he ? i thought they are together !! suddenly i saw paper on the ground i took it and open it in my room . 

but my tears falls suddenly when i saw the letter . it's from GD ...but why he has to leave ? ...he said he will stay beside me and he won't never leave me . he will always protect me . he will leave me like my mom did . he even didn't say anyword . that was a joke i know that GD won't never leave me . i was crying so hard when i kept calling him and he don't answer . i searched for him in the house . his room , taeyang room , dad office , everywhere and i couldn't find him . 

why he is doing this ? ..where are you GD ? ..please don't leave me ! " no no no ..you won't leave me no !! " i screamed and someone hugged me and i started to hit him . " get away from me !! ..don't touch me !! " 

" jiyong ah ..jiyong !! calm down !! " 

" leave me alone . you will leave me too ..goo ..go away !! " 

" jiyong listen to me ? ..what happened to you ? " 

" i said don't touch me ! " 

" kwon jiyong !! ..did you lost you mind !! " taeyang shouted at me but i was shocked more when he slaped my face . i thought ..i thought he is the only one in my life won't dare to hurt me .even GD didn't slap me .