Love Between Twins

Never Be Mine

JIYONG pov

" seungri ah .. Are you okay now ? Do you feel much better ? " I said and set beside him . " I'm okay hyung ...hyung ... Please let's talk " seungri said and he was about to cry . He hold my hands and cried . " seungri ah ...what's wrong ? Tell me ? " I said worried . " you won't be mad on me ? .. You said you don't want to talk about this " seungri said making me confused . " oh seungri ah ...I will be back my father is calling " I said and went out .

when I went out I saw GD was wet cause of the rain , his eyes were red . " hyung .. Go to change your clothes you will get cold ! " I said and he nodded to me . What's happening here , GD and riri are sad ? Anyways I went down to meet my father . 

SEUNGRI pov

GD went out to speak with his father . I know he was running from me . Why he thought that I don't love him . I really love him but he now don't believe me , I waited him to come and he came after 1 hour . 

i was acting like I was sleeping . I felt someone set beside me on bed stroking my hair softly . Making me fall sleep , but he suddenly started to speak . " why are you making my heart break every time I looke to you ? ... But don't worry I will try to handle this pain . You must get better first and I can then leave you live happy with the one who you want . " GD whispered sadly . Why he is calm and don't get angry ? 

I wanted to get up and kiss him and hug him . But I couldn't speak . I kept thinking of what he just said , he will leave me to live with my love . But he is my love and I won't live with anyone aside him . Why he saying that why he don't believe me that I really love him . 

I fall asleep suddenly forgetting he is here playing with my hair . This medic making me fall sleep . 

After 4 hours ....

i wake up and I saw him setting beside me smiling to me . " now can you eat this cause I was waiting for along time ago . " he said holding a tray full of food . I smiled to him and he started feeding me . " I want you to eat all this food to get stronger and better health soon okay " he said and I nodded . I liked the way he care about me . He don't show his broken feeling to me not to make me sad . 

" hyung ! .." I said and cut me 

" ssst ,.. Don't speak eat this first " he said and I did what he ordered me . After I finished making my stomach full with food , I now was able to talk to him . " hyung ...please give chance to speak to you " I said nervouse and he hold my cheek . " what's wrong seungri ah ? Why are you said ?" He said  trying to act idiot , that he don't know what happened .

GD pov

i take my shower after I left seungri sleeping . I orderd the maids to make some food for him then I go to jiyong room . " jiji ...can you take the food for seungri when he wake up ? " I asked jiyong and he nodded . But he stoped me before leaving . " hyung ...you are so sad these days ,..what happened ? You can tell me " jiyong said and hugged me . i wanted to cry so much now but I can't , I can't cry in front of jiyong . I hugged him back to my chest " I'm okay jiji .. It's just because working . And I didn't have enough sleep . " I said and he nodded . " hyung don't be weak or sick . I love you okay ...do you want a kiss ? " he said making me laugh . 

" you little mouse ..how dear you say this ? I'm the only one is able to kiss-" I said and he cut me with his lips kissing me . " yah ..why did you kiss me !! " I shouted blushing . " hyung this isn't the first time we kiss calm down you are so anoying . " he said making me shocked this mouse is now old , how can he speak to me like this . He then laughed and acted cute . " don't worry ..you will regret that later " I said and he smiled . 

" I would love to be kissed from you hyung " he said shocking me more . Who is teaching him to say this ? ... Anyways I left his room and went to seungri room . He is still sleeping . I kissed him forehead and went to my room . I set on my bed and started to write letter for seungri that I will give it to him after he get better soon . I was so sad that I will travel and I won't see him again . 

seungri ah ... If are reading this . That's mean I left to London 

to deal something's with my father partner there . I hope you will

be happy with your lover . I won't bother your life ... I'm sorry about 

everything ... I'm sorry about what I did to you . Sorry for hurting you

sorry about what those bastard did to you . I'm really sorry ...

i just want you to know that I love you so much ,you changed me a lot

seungri ah  and I know ...

i know that you won't be able to love someone like me . You even 

get scared when I get closer to you . So you won't be afraid anymore 

don't let anyone touch you or hurt you . Be happy ...I will miss you . 

I hope you could remember me when I get back ... Good bye riri 

I love you ..

I wrote the letter and went out from my room to seungri room . I will leave the letter and kiss him for the last time . My heart was now broken , but my heart blow from sadness and anger ... 

" hyung please don't leave me .. I love you . I didn't love someone before like I love you now . It hurt me when you ignore me ... Please answer me " I heard seungri saying this to jiyong . My tears fall on my cheeks when I couldn't believe what I just heard from him . I looked to jiyong who didn't say anything , ... So ..jiyong he was the one who seungri love . 

I now wasn't able to breath when seungri kissed jiyong . I couldn't stand there , I was so angry now . But I can't do anything . My lover one love my brother . And I can't do anything . I went out from the house with my car . I was crying all the way going to the farm house . When I went inside I break everything in the house . I was so angry now , I can't even think what should I do . 

Why my brother .. Why jiyong !! Why him !! .. I won't able to afford all this . " How can I take all this pain seungri !! ... If it was someone else .. I will be able to live . But why jiyong ? Why it's have to be him ? " I screamed breaking the glass and the vase . 

Li cried so much now . I took the wine bottle and start drinking it . Alcohol will make me forget him . But I will remember everything when I wake up and the pain will start again . It will rap my heart every time I remember him . Or I just keep thinking of the real fact that jiyong and him together . 

And I won't never have him or be mine .  

P.S : the letter fall on the ground before GD went out ;) .

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sorry if the chapter wasn't good . Now seungri will be confused from GD actions ,

that he is jiyong in fact 

will seungri find out that all this time it was jiyong not GD  . ^^ please comment :) 

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