Love Between Twins

I can't trust you

GD pov

" seungri ah ..seungri ah what's wrong ? ..answer me please ! ...hyung drive faster he is not breathing !! " i shouted at taeyang to drive fast . seungri collapsed and now he is not breathing . i kept shaking hit slap his face but he still don't breath . he is cold ..i was afraid that he will..he will die . " seungri ..please don't die ..i'm sorry for everything i did to you ..but please don't leave me . you must know that i love you " i whispered while crying hugging him . 

we arrived at the hospital and the doctors take him from my arms . he was lifeless , i went inside and waited for so long . taeyang tried to calm me but i was still crying . i could finally find someone to love and give my heart to someone who deserve to be loved . he won't hurt me , i know that if he loved me he won't never cheat on me . but seeing him like this it hurts like hell . 

" GD ..jiyong keep calling and wants to talk to you " taeyang said and i didn't want to answer anyone . " tell him i'm fine ..don't worry " i said setting on the floor waiting the doctors to come out . but i get more nervouse when it took 3 hours and no one came out . i was walking everywhere . i tried to control my anger hardly now . and suddenly the doctor came out 

" how is he ? where is he ? ..is he okay ? ..he is alive right ?" i said nervouse . " calm down mr.GD ..he is alive , but ..his back get hurt badly , his arm is broken and the daibetes affect on him that he lost breathing . and his health now so bad . he won't be able to walk for few days because of his back . so you should take good care of him . " the doctor said and i wanted to cry so much . 

i wasn't the one who get hurt , so why the hell i feel hurt deep in my heart . i hate that feeling , i was now shocked and tears fall from my eyes when i saw him taking him to his room . i followed them but they didn't let me in that made me want to kill somebody . " let me in or i swear god i will kill you " i said coldly to the nurse who refused to let me go inside . grapping her from collar .

" GD calm down ..we are in hospital ! " taeyang whispered and i let her go . i entered the room and i saw alot of things was put on his chest and his hand , i came closer to him ,every step i make break my heart . i felt sorry about what these bastards done to him . i set on the chair beside him and touched his hand , it was so soft but when i looked to his face ...he was hurt , his pale face , the blue marks around his lips that i wanted bad to kiss it . his broken hand . 

his back too ...he even didn't eat anything since 2 days . "seungri ah  ...wake up and look at me ..do you know ..this was the first time i cry after my mom died . i was living without feeling . but now when you camed to my life , you changed me alot ..i don't know if is this better or not . but you are make me going crazy about you everyday . why you ? ..why no one else ? ...i don't know what is happening when you come closer to me , looking to me , when i touch you i feel that i'm the lucky one in the world to have you baby ...jiyong told me before that if you feel all this things ,..it's called love . ...so i think i'm in love with you ? ..but why that love hurts ? " i said to him and asking but he was still sleeping . 

i couldn't feel myself and slept holding his hand . i didn't sleep for so long . 

SEUNGRI pov

i heard everything GD says . it made my heart fall fo him more and deep . but i can't forgive him that easy . he don't care about my feelings how can i trust him . how can i live and love someone who i'm afraid that he will hurt me again . i get used to get hurt by hit . but  i don't want to get hurt by his words . but he love me now ..so he won't try to hurt me right ? 

i opened my eyes weakly ...i can feel him holding my hands . i turned my head to see him . he was sleeping so deep . he was worried about me . no one before cared if i get hurt or not  even my ex boyfriend . but now i have one who love me so much . too handsome for me to handle his smile . he was sleeping deep . i put my hand on his hair and start playing with his hair . i wish he stay like this and never get angry . he is so cute now . is that mean now he is my boyfriend ? 

i smiled when he started to speak " i will kill you bastard ..fuck off ..go to hell " he keep saying and even in his sleeping he get angry . 

when i tried to move my back hurted me so much that i put my hand on my mouth tp prevent myself not to scream from pain i don't want to wake him up . i wanted to go to the bathroom . but i couldn't move , i put my legs on the ground to stand up . my hand sliped from his hand making him wake up . " what ?..what happened ? ..seu - seungri ah ..are you okay ? no you must sleep again ..you are hurt , where are yu going " GD said suddenly worried . i was feeling pain but smiled back to him . " i'm fine hyung ...i just need to go to the bathroom " i said and he stand up and walk to me , he hold my face between his two hands wipping my tears that already fall . 

" i won't ever leave you ..i won't let anyone hurt you or even touch you baby ...seungri ah ,..i love you " he said and kissed my lips . i closed my eyes . it hurted my lips but his lips on mine healed me . " i ..i don't love you , i can't trust you " i said shocking him . he looked so sad when i said that ..but i can't really trust him , what if he hurted me again . 

" hyung ..i'm sorry but i - " 

" it's okay seungri ..i understand , you don't love me ..i'm not going to make you do something you don't want to ..sorry again for what my men had done to you ...i will send taeyang to drive you home . " he said breaking my heart . i really love him , but i wanted to make sure that he love me . he now care about me . he is sad , he didn't even look to my eyes while speaking . just looking to the ground . he turned and left me satnding there like idiot who broke his lover heart 

why the hell i said that ? ...i wanted to go after him but it hurted me when i moved . i wanted to tell him i'm sorry . i love you ..i want to be yours ..but it was defficult when i was walking . but i managed to walk to the door . i screamed inside of me from pain , when i opened the door i saw him crying on taeyang chest outside hugging him . " hyu..hyung ..please don't go " i said whie crying , they looked at me when i fall on the ground when i couldn't handle the pain . 

GD pov

" seungri ah ..are you okay !! why did you walk out " i said crying and then he screamed . " it's okay baby ...you are fine . please don't scream " i said and he calm down when i stroked his hair . " hyung i'm sorry ..i do love you . i didn't mean to hurt you " seungri said breaking my heart more . it's make me so sad . " seungri ..you don't love me ..don't be sorry .and don't make yourself love me and you don't want to ..i understand you ..now we will talk about this at home ..or we should never talk about it . let's go home " i said and lifted him up . i went to my car and put him inside . i get inside and drive to home . taeyang stayed to get seungri things . 

we arrived at home and i was so angry and feel broken at the same time . i opened the door for seungri and lifted him up , he was staring at me but i didn't want to look at him . that was too much for me . he even cried in the car when i refused to speak to him . i went up to his room and put him on bed . " stay here and don't move ..if you need anything just call me " i said covering him and he nodded . 

i went out to take some air . i wanted my heart to calm but he don't want to calm . the sky was raining , i set in the garden crying , thinking of what i had done to him that was the reason to make him hate me . i now wishing that if i could get time back and fix everything with him

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