Die to Live

Chapter 7: "Blinded"

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"JANEE!" I repeated.

"Where the hell are you?!" I screamed endlessly, but she was long gone, her car was not there either. I tried calling her but her phone was off.

"That fucking bastard, I should've ended him when I had the chance!" I pointed my gun everywhere, not caring if I shoot it.

I went back inside and looked for a drink between the rubbish that was called my house. I found a small bottle and without thinking it twice, I gulped down half of it at once. It tasted horrible... but I'm sure very soon it will take my pain away. I need her, I told myself, but some other side of me was fighting against my will to make another decision I know, i will later regret. But I just can't fight it. I walked out again, gulping the remaining liquid and threw the empty bottle in the street.

Rain drops started to fall against my skin, on the road, everywhere. I was damped in water but that wasn't going to stop me if it was the purpose. I tilted my head back, and closed my eyes, trying to regain control of myself but they just wont shut up.

West, the old guy that lived next door, came outside his house. He probably heard me screaming, not that I care a bit though. He opened the door with hesitation, and when he saw my emotional state, I could see him flinch. Oh, and when he noticed the gun in my hand? His blood turned white in a second. Seems like he was only one alive around the block; until he saw me of course.

"Mr. Rodger... Mr. Rodger! Please, calm down." He told me, making it worst.

"DONT YOU TELL ME TO CALM DOWN!"

"Hey, its ok, its ok. Everything is going to be alright. Whatever it is, I can help you..." He very carefully, started to walk down the stairs of his front door, once in a while looking at my gun.

"Its so easy for you to say it right? When it's not your girlfriend who dumped you!!" I pointed the gun at him whenever I referred to him. I cynically laughed while a tear involuntarily rolled down my skin. I licked my teeth, looked away then back at him in a defiant way and swallowed before talking again.

"I'm sorry that happened man, I am .... But please, you need to calm down. This isn't you.." He said in its cowboy accent, hella annoying.

This isn't you... this isn't you...

"You make it sound so easy... but of course it is ! When its not YOU!... whos she afraid of!" This time, I kept the gun in his direction giving small steps towards him. Although, I was not sure what I was doing. I stopped walking. "You can leave now... I don't need your pity." I kept the gun up, not wanting to shoot him but to intimidate him and make him leave.

"Vin...I mean Mr. Rodger please, put...put the gun down. I can help you, just, lower your gun. You need to breathe and think things through. I'm not going to hurt you, I promise, and I ain't doing this for pity... We have known each other for years now, and I know, I know you don't want to hurt me either." He was now a few feet away from me but kept getting closer, making me afraid of myself with each step he gave.