Swan Queen Once Shots

I Didn't Mean It Emma..

  WARNINGGGGG: Major Character Death and HELLA angsty!  

(oh my god guys, I'm so sorry for this one. I legit cried most of the time I wrote it.)

(just in case you missed it though, MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH, like DEATH DEATH not come back to life and they all good. no.)

"Really Emma, is that what your parents told you?" Regina said in a loud angry voice, they had been fighting for a little under an hour about the smallest thing that escalated into their biggest fight. "Last time I checked you didn't have to listen to your parents, especially ones that discarded you and put you in a wardrobe sending you off to a life of horrible foster homes, one after the other!" As soon as the words were out Regina regretted them. Emma's childhood was always off limits in fights just like Regina being the evil queen was for Emma. The only thing is Regina just broke that rule, and along with it she saw her fiance's shattered heart. 

Emma swallowed hard, then without a word she turned to leave, she wouldn't let Regina see her cry. 

"Emma wait," Regina spoke in a wobbly voice. "I-I didn't mean it, it just came out." 

The blonde stopped walking, but didn't turn to face the other woman. "I think-" she started but her voice gave out, "I think that makes it worse." With that being said Emma started walking again and headed out the door leaving Regina standing there loathing herself for even thinking those words and even more for spitting them out in anger. 

Emma got in her bug and drove out of the drive way, she didn't know where she was going. All she knew is that she couldn't stay at Regina's anymore. Yes she calls it Regina's again, it didn't feel like home anymore. She couldn't believe that Regina had said the words she had thought in her mind for the past few years since she found her parents. She has tried to forgive them, she really has. She even pretends it is okay so she doesn't hurt them any more, but she has never gotten over the fact that they gave her away to save everyone else. What about her? She told Regina that in confidence one night, feeling like she needed-even wanted to open up to her. They would be married soon, so why not give Regina the chance to back out with all her damaged laundry laying out for her to see. She never once thought that Regina would use it against her in a fight, especially with so much hate and anger in her voice. 

She continued driving around town, stuck in her head, not even realizing the tears streaming down her face. It was around sunset, so everything was beautiful. The town looked orange-y red and there were few people walking around, everyone was heading home from work for the day. She stopped at a stop sign and just sat there for a moment, taking a deep breath and trying to calm down. She knows that she probably should have stayed, maybe even yelled back, but no matter how hard she was hurt she wouldn't want Regina to hurt equally. 

That's when she decided to go back home and sleep on the couch, let Regina know she wasn't running away but that she was pissed and hurt. 

Fate had different plans though, she didn't notice the car flying down the road from her left going about 80 mph. They didn't seem to car about the stop sign or the fact that there was a person, Emma, about to cross the road in their direct path. 

Emma looked to her left and she just felt her heart drop, she looked down to her ring and then back up at the car coming in her direction. There is no way that Regina would know Emma was heading back to the house. There is no way for Emma to let Regina know that she forgives her and she's sorry for leaving the house. There is no way that Emma can tell Regina one more time how much she wants to marry her and start a life as Mrs. Swan-Mills. All of that stops, all her thinking stops the moment the car crashes into her driver side door.