Breathe

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I stare at his back as it moves further and further away from me, " I'm sorry baby" I whisper under my breath as I hear a door close. I feel them coming, tears, running along my face and off my chin. I sniffle and glance around the room... clothes... where are my clothes.

I find my shirt and shorts crumpled up under the coffee table, that's all I need. I disregard my panties and bra and throw on the shirt and shorts. I walk to the door but before leaving I look back, maybe I'm looking for Harry to beg me to stay and tell me everything's going to be alright, I know that isn't going to happen, I pushed him away like I push away everyone else that wants to be close to me. I close my eyes briefly, open the door and step out.

I glance around helplessly, I don't want to be alone yet here I am completely alone and freezing cold at 2 in the morning. I take out my phone and dial Tia.

Ring....Ring...Ring...

" Hi you've reached Tia Jones, please leave a message after the beep!"

"Shit" I mutter.

I walk down the long narrow hallway and take a few turns before I reach Nialls door. I pause and take a deep breath before knocking three times. I hear rustling from inside the door.

" Stop walking away from me Nina" Harrys deep voice haunts me in the back of my head. I cringe.

I hear a click and the door swings open.

" Nina?" Niall looks at me, dazed, eyes red from just waking up and hair scruffy and messy.

" Can I talk to Tia" My voice cracks and the tears renew. His eyes widen and quickly he gestures me in.

" Tia" Niall shouts nervously

" Wha-" She walks in annoyed, appearance same as Nialls. Her face changes at instant though when she sees me, tears streaming down my face.

" Nina what happened" She rushes to my side and it all becomes too real. As she wraps her arms around me I break down into a thousand pieces mixed with tears and sobs.

" Talk to me Nina"

" I ca- I cant Tia" I sniffle, ready for the dry heaves to kick in " It hurts so much" water pours out of my eyes as Tia struggles to hold me up. We slide onto the floor and I throw my arms around her, crying loudly.

I can see Niall from the corner of my eye, he runs his hands though his hare and glares down at us, concern, fear and hints of worry make up his face and accent into his eyes.

" Tell me what happened" Tia tries once more to get me to talk

" Nina breath, you need to calm down" she runs her hands along my cheeks.

I nod, shaking the tears onto the floor, I take three shaky deep breaths.

I open my mouth to start, but I don't know where.

" He kissed her, he fucking kissed her and I didn't expect it to hurt me as much as it did" I ramble on the thoughts floating around in my mind

" It's just a kiss" I whisper " I know its just a kiss but it hurt like it was more"

Tia studies me, like a therapist.

" And now I don't know if I can let him back in Tia I don't know If I can give him another chance" I talk fast, attempting to keep the tears under control and failing miserably.

" I look at him and all I feel is angry and hurt" My voice sounds like I've swallowed shards of glass from all the crying

" It's not the same anymore, kissing him, talking to him, being with him, everything's changed" Fear evident in my every word, a fresh set of tears appear.