Step-daddy

Chapter 8: It's not your fault

*TRIGGER WARNING: RAPE*

It's been 4 months since my mom took him back and I haven't even talked to him or looked st him even though every now and then I'd feel a pair of eyes on me and I knew it was him, he made me feel so dumb for handing it out to him I loved him so much but now I don't know anymore - I sighed watching my mom dress up Isaac in his Halloween costume to see if it fit him good and it did I smiled as he did clapping his hands "you like it don't you buddy?" I asked as he looked at me with the biggest smile I've ever seen "yesss" he said as he ran to me trying to get up on the couch but he couldn't being only 4 years old as I helped him up here he giggled grabbing at me "you are the cutest little tigger I have ever seen" I said and he smiled "tigger!" He shouted back as I looked at my mom who was smiling as she watched us "I really have missed a lot didn't I?" She asked me looking at me with sad eyes and I nodded "yeah you have mother" I sternly grabbing my brother as I took him to his playroom and as I headed back to the living room Jim walked in throwing his jacket on the floor silently cursing at himself this was the first time I really looked at Jim he was pissed off I could tell but at what? "What's wrong babe?" My mother asked as she hugged him "they fucking fired me" he cursed hugging onto my mother as I looked st him getting a bit mad myself "they can't do that, can they?" I asked looking from him to my mother "well they just fucking did Emily" he said starting at me now and I held up my hands "woah don't get fucking mad st me because you got fired, aren't you the boss?" I said as he sighed "in the damn CEO of that fucking company I'm a lot more than they're damn boss!" He started raising his voice with me "calm the fuck down Jim maybe-" he cut me off by shooing me off "maybe nothing Emily go to your damn room" he ordered making me laugh "ha! You got a lot of fucking nerve Jim you aren't my damn dad" I shouted at him as he grabbed my arm "no I'm you damn stepdad you better start treating me like it young lady" he said pulling me upstairs as tossed me into my room as I went to run bout my door I heard it click meaning he locked it as I heard his foot steps leave my door, I wanted to scream I wanted to kick that damn door down but I didn't feel like breaking my foot as I groaned loud enough for them to hear me as I threw myself on my bed and screamed into my pillow "he has no right getting made at me! I didn't get him fired! He got himself fucking fired!" I screamed into my pillow before throwing it at the door realizing I was acting like a complete child as I stood up from my bed walking to my bedroom window and I climbed out; I walked down the street to the nearest park stopping once I had it in my sight seeing tons of people there well from what I could see there were tons of people there since it was barely daylight outside luckily most of them looked like they had phone, I walked up to the small party the smell of alcohol instantly hitting my nostrils making me cringe slightly but I shook it off wondering through the group of people "hey babe" I heard a guy say as I reached the bench table that held the alcohol seeing girls and guys sitting on it making out and doing body shots off it but my gaze was turned away from it by someone grabbing my arm which caused me to turn around "hey baby what're you doing here? Don't you know this is a private party" the drunk douche bag gripping my wrist slurred as he stumbled back and forth "doesn't seem very private to me since it's in a damn park" I said grabbing the red cup from the table and tossed it on him before leaving through the crowd of people I didn't bother staying because of that douche bag so I just continued to take a walk. I checked the time on my phone seeing it was nearly 10:30 pm I just sighed not feeling ready to go home as I sat on the curb a few houses down from my own at the end of the street I seen someone walking my way I didn't care it was probably some person walking late out like me as the person passed they brushed me making me look up at them seeing barely past their hoodie "hey babe" the familiar slurred voice said to me before grabbing me and covering my mouth before I could scream as he dragged me in the alley way of a house "why'd you dump that on me baby?" He asked getting close to my neck as he gripped his hand around it cutting off my air way his other hand still covering my mouth as he licked his tongue up my cheek and I wanted to vomit as I smelt the alcohol on his breath, I felt his hand leave my throat as I gasped for air his hand lifting from my mouth to let me breath "I'm not looking to hurt you just cooperate and it'll be done" he told me as I nodded holding my tears as they stung my eyes; I felt his hand slide up my skirt and grab ahold of my underwear tears fell down my cheeks as he tore them from me making me flinch I heard him sigh and unbuckle his pants I didn't want to look at him as I turned my head towards the fence my eyes burned into it as I felt a sharp pain shoot through my guts making me cry even more trying to hide the fact that I was as he moved himself inside me I stared at the fence my own tears burned my cold cheeks as my face became cold and knowing I was pale as a ghost hearing him make noises that made me vomit in my mouth but I swallowed it, his hand grabbed my throats again making me look back to him seeing his disgusting face filled with pleasure it made me cry even harder this time I wasn't able to hide it as I repeated in my head 'please be done please be done please be done' feeling another sharp pain as he rid himself out of me and left me there on the cold wet grass - I got up after what felt like an hour just laying there crying curled in a ball I finally walked back home as I weakly turned the door knob Jim was in the living room as he looked to me once he heard me come in "where have you been?! Did you sneak out?" He asked me as he walked towards me I flinched as he touched me "please don't touch me" I mumbled barely audible words as he looked at me confused "what's wrong?" He asked now becoming seriously concerned "just please don't touch me" I said again walking up the stairs stopping at the top once I heard Jim gasp "Emily wait" he said before I heard his big foot steps rush up the stairs to me "what happened to you?" He said I knew he seen my bare bum and I'm guessing by the way I felt I looked the same way "I don't want to talk about it Jim please" I cried to him as he pulled me into his arms "I'm so sorry Emily I shouldn't have acted that way to you this is all me fault" he cried into my hair as I shook my head "no Jim it's not, I want to go to bed so goodnight" I said leaving him arms to my room which was now unlocked as I walked inside I went to my bed and curled up into my blankets just staring at the wall as I remembered vividly everything about tonight.

*I'm sorry it took me so long to write this chapter, to be honest I've had it half written for a week and I've been afraid to publish it because it has such an...hard topic, god I don't want to say it like that but it's the only word that I can think of or more or less remember. I am in no way shape or form glorifying, romanticizing, inducing, promoting, or mocking rape or the people who have been raped, if this chapter is too sensitive for you please tell me and I will take it down and rewrite it I don it want any of you to feel bad or anything of the such because of this!
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