Step-daddy

Chapter 9: pretty baby

We can escape to the great sunshine
I know your wife and she wouldn't mind
- Lana Del Rey • cola.

*one year later*

I sat in the smoke filled room on a couch I've never been on watching my friends get high while I sat back drinking out of my mind I wanted to forget all that has happened this past year, my mother and Jim got 'properly' married with a ceremony and everything, my brother going off to preschool, my best friend leaving for college while I stayed back with a man I'm in love with but can't be with; I sighed standing from the couch as Hailey looked up at me her eyes as blood shot as can be as she smiled "where ya going?" She asked me her voice low slurring as she took a drink "I'm gonna go outside get some air" I say being honest because this place stinked like cocaine and piss I couldn't stand it for one more second so I walked outside breathing in the cold autumn breeze the smell of Halloween tradition filled my nostrils as I looked at the naked trees everything about September was terrifying since Halloween was just around the corner but it was my favorite time of year scary movies and candy was what I longed for all year although it hasn't really been the same since my mother came back into my life with Jim seeing them dress up like twins being suffocated by their family made me want to vomit but I'd smile when Jim would make jokes about it I remember last year they dressed up as gangsters and he'd always quote The Godfather or scar face but mostly The Godfather and I couldn't help but smile. I shook my head realizing I was getting lost in thought as I smiled "stupid Jim" I mumbled look at the stars the sound of a familiar roaring of a car filled my ears as I looked to see Jim driving down he street his window down and his head out as he called my name "Emily!" He shouted and I melted now whenever he says my name I just die inside I want him badly but he'd never do that again "hi Jim" I shouted drunk off my ass as he stopped the car to look at me and waved my fingers as he pulled around stopping in front of Gregg's house and he got out of the car the look of anger and worry was plastered on his face as he stormed over to me "where the fuck have you been? I've been looking for you since 8" he shouted at me gripping my wrist most likely to leave a bruise as I shrugged "I wanted to go out besides I'm almost 20 years old" I argued with a devious smile making him growl in frustration "while you're living under your mothers roof you obey her and me until you decide to move out" he said pulling me to the car and tossed me in the back seat and I sighed "you are such a dick Jim you know that?" I said crawling into the passenger seat as he got in looking at me with annoyance as I plugged my phone into the aux and turning it onto one of my favorite songs "hey Jim do you remember this?" I asked with a laugh turning up the music as it played "my pussy tastes like Pepsi cola my eyes so wide like cherry pies" I sang along with Lana putting my hand on Jim's arm feeling him tense up "Emily turn it off" he said turning the music down but I turned it back up and sang along once again "all he wants to do is party with his pretty baby" I sang before kissing Jim's cheek and he looked at me "Emily knock it off right now" he said speeding up his car to get home faster and I laughed nuzzling his beard "why Jim? You getting bothered?" I mocked him and he stopped the car "get out Emily" he said so simple as he unlocked the doors "what? No I'll be good" I said falling back in my seat not wanting to walk home and we drove the rest of the home in silence.

I sighed walking inside as Jim closed the door "go get some water Emily" he told me almost like ordering me as I rolled my eyes walking into the kitchen where I ran some water filling a glass and drank it the coldness of made me smile since I was thirsty as all hell and I looked up to see Jim leaning against the counter "what has gotten into you Emily? You used to be such a good girl" he asked crossing his arms making me sigh "I don't want to talk about it Jim" I said putting my glass in the sink crossing my arms as well watching him sigh and look down "you need to tell me sometime Emily, does this have anything to do with that one night 2 years ago?" He asked me as my face flushed red as I remembered that night and I shook my head it all really had to do with when my mother came back and they instantly wanted to fuck even after I gave myself to him he didn't care about me it showed at least not in the way "no Jim it has nothing to do with you alright" I lied feeling tears start burning at my eyes so I looked down "Emily talk to me" he said making me look at him as he put his hand under my jaw and lifted my head up "I gave myself to you Jim and you didn't care just as long as you got a fuck" I cried swatting his hand away turning to go to my room but he grabbed me "listen to me Emily I cared about you I still care about you I love you so much darlin' but I needed to do it or she would have left and god knows what she would have said I love your mother too Emily I know it's hard to hear it but we can't be a thing I'm sorry" he explained and I shook my head "why not? I'm older now you won't get in trouble I want you Jim so bad it hurts seeing you with her knowing she doesn't love you back" I said wanting to just curl up and die as he held my shoulders "you'll get over it Emily I promise you once you get out there" I cut him off by sighing in anger "I want you Jim not anyone else why can't you see that" I explained as he sighed letting my arms go "go to bed Emily" he said making my roll my eyes "Jim please" I said grabbing his shirt before he pushed my hand away "now Emily!" He shouted making me flinch and I turned to go to my room seeing my mother standing there with her arms cross as I passed her I heard her sigh making me look at her to see her shake her head and walk to Jim and hug onto him as I walked up the stairs and into my room where I cried myself to sleep.