Being Ashton Irwin's Sister (Calum Hood Fanfic)

Chapter 5

after a few minutes we pulled away, catching our breath back and resting our foreheads against each other.

"you know, I always thought you liked Michael," Calum said. At first I was shocked but then just started laughing. "what? what's so funny?" Calum said starting to laugh along with me.

"Michaels an ass and plus he's the only one who knows I like you," after I realised what I said I gasped and backed away a bit.

"i...I...I'm sorr-" Calum cut me off by crashing his lips against mine once again, he grabbed my waist and pulled our bodies closer so there was no gap between us as I wrapped my hands around his neck playing with the bottom of his hair.

After a few minutes we both pulled away breathless yet again. We grinned at each other before Calum quickly pecked me on the lips, grabbed my hand and started walking back the way we came.

"we should probably go find the boys before they suspect something," Calum suggested.

"yeah.. yeah we should," I said still caught up in everything that just happened, not even thinking of what Ashton would do if he found out.

Calum leaned down so he could whisper in your ear,

"oh and for the record, I like you too," he said before kissing you on the cheek and standing up straight and continuing walking like nothing had happened. You started to blush at the sudden realisation that Calum Hood liked you back.

Just before we entered the cafe where the boys were Calum realeased his tight grip from your hand as you decided it would just be better and not tell the boys anything.

We walked into the small cafe and over to where the boys were sat. I sat across from michael whilst calum sat next to me across from ashton, luke at the head of the table.

"How was your walk?" Michael smirked at me.

"Just fine thank you," I said kicking michae's shin under the table. He winced but covered it up with a cough.

We sat and talked for another hour until we finally decided to head back home. On the walk home the boys were ahead joking around with each other while i trailed behind, too lost in my own thoughts to pay attention to anyone. I felt a nudge on my shoulder and turned around to be greeted by the familiar smile of my brother ashton. He smiled at me and i smiled back.

"do you remember when every friday night we used to sit in one of our rooms and eat pizza and tell each secrets, we haven't done that in a while and i miss it," Ashton said. "I feel like we don't talk anymore or tell each other everything like we used to."

At first i was taken back my ashton's sudden confession but then realised he was right, we were no where near as close as we used to be, mainly before i grew up and he joined a band. We never found time, mainly because he was always out but sometimes i had other plans. I can't even remember the last time we had a serious conversation until now.

"I don't have anything to tell you," This was a complete lie. First of all i have a massive crush on his band mate and i've gotten a lot worse since we drifted. 3 years a go i started getting sad for no reason until eventually i snapped and took out the pain on myself. This happened for a few months until Ashton found me crying in my room with bandages up my arm, i told him everything about how i was feeling and what i'd done, he just sat and listened and held me whilst we cried together. After i'd finished he told me he knew how i felt and said he'd taken pain out on his self before too. This had definitely brought us closer, and ever since then we've been inseparable, that is until he joined the band. At first i liked the idea of have 3 hot boys in my house but after a while i realised they were taking my brother away from me and i used to get angry and was horrible to the boys whenever they came round. That soon stopped when i started becoming friends with them and started liking calum. After this i started becoming really good friends with all the boys, but the closer i got to them the more distant i got from ashton and at first it didn't bother me, but now it does bother me, it bothers me a lot. A few months a go i found my old razor and just thought about everything and hurt myself, it took me a while to realise what i was doing but as soon as i did i stopped and swore to never do it again. This lasted for a few weeks until this became a weekly thing, instead of the old friday nights that i spent with ashton and i would lock myself in my bathroom. Ashton never found out, he was always too busy with work, and i'd always make sure he wasn't in the house whenever i did do it.

"You're lying, i can always tell when you're lying Lauren," Ashton said, hurt evident in his eyes.

"I'm fine, like always," I said forcing a smile onto my face.

Ashton sighed and mumbled a fine before catching up with the rest of the boys. Sometimes i miss Ashton, actually all the time i miss him, but i just won't admit it because i know he's happier without having to worry about my issues, like everyone else.

We eventually arrived back at the house and i quickly ran upstairs, avoiding contact with anyone.

My head started throbbing and my vision became blurry as i stumbled up the stairs into my room before collapsing onto my bed.

BONJOUR sorry this is emotional i'm just feeling emotional and i'm tired and yeah i thought it would make the story more interesting idk anyway thanks for reading ily:)))))