I'm not who I used to be (Dipcifica love story)

Shining stars

(Dipper's Pov)

6:10....I figured Pacifca would want to talk about last night. As bad I don't want to, I owe her a explanation. Then again she seemed okay about it from this afternoon. Speaking of this afternoon, what was Mabel doing behind that bush? Pacifica also seemed distracted, I wonder..... 

I got so caught up in my thoughts I didn't even realize that Pacifica was walking up to me. She snapped me out of my thoughts as she says "Hey.." I look up at her, she was wearing white t-shirt with a red checkered long sleeves around her waist, and white shorts on. She also was wearing black flats on. "Hey," I say, straightening up better.

"Sorry for being late, I was held up with something.." she looked at her feet as she spoke. "Its fine," I say walking over to her. She froze as I approached her. "Do you want to sit down?" I asked, unsure what to say. This is one of the awkwardest conversations I've ever had with anyone. I can feel the air getting thick and heavy. "Yeah," She sits on a rock by a tree, not far from where I was sitting at. 

I go back to the log I was sitting on and sit down. I didn't know if I should break the silence, since I was the one to ask here. I decided to break the silence and say "About what happened last night...." She looks up at me. "It shouldn't have happened...." I finished, and its true. I couldn't control myself last night, I shouldn't have kissed her. 

She just looks at me and nods. "I understand, I shouldn't have teased you," Her voice  cracks as she crosses her arms around her chest. Did I some how upset her? "Are you okay?" I ask, still wondering if I some how upset her in some way. "Can I be honest with you?" She asks in a whisper. I nod my head in interest.

"Its about my parents.." she starts, her voice cracking. I get up and walk over to her and sat next to her. "They're leaving me here," She looks up at me, eyes now puffy and red. "They don't give a shit about me, hell I'm better off being homeless and poor," she croaks, as she hugs her knees to her self and cry. "I'm sorry Pacifica," I say, now hugging her. She leans her head on my shoulder and cries. 

We stay like that for about 5 minutes till she pulls her head out from my neck. "I'm sorry, I'm such a mess. I shouldn't be telling you my problems," she looks me in the eyes. She had more tears come from her eyes, I wiped them away. I soften my gaze as I look back at her. "Pacifica, I know we don't get along, but if you ever want to talk about anything I'm here." She tucks a random strand of hair behind her ear. 

Butterflies start attacking my stomach, making me feel almost light headed. She blushes and nods slowly. God her eyes, I can stare into them forever. What is this feeling she gives me when I'm around her? That I want to protect her, and keep her safe? I look into her eyes, she does the same. I bite my bottom lip, and glance at her lips, back to her eyes. She noticed cause she just blushes. 

God I just want to kiss her....I lean to her slowly, seeing if she was doing the same. Now inches from each others lips, I looked back at her eyes before getting any closer. She answers by putting her lips on mine, till my phone went off scaring us. I pull back to see what who was calling me. Pacifica just turns her head the other way, blushing. Mabel.. "Hey," I say causally, considering what just happens. "Hey bro bro! Where are you?" Mabel asks. "Just in the woods thinking," I replied. "Okay, well Gruncle Stan and Ford wants you back home." "Okay, I'll be home in a bit.." "See you in a few!" She says then hangs up.

I look back at Pacifica, which is now standing up. The air has thickened up with cold silence. I got up and scratched my head awkwardly. She scratches her arm nervously. I decided to break the ice and say "Well I should be on my way.." "Yeah me to.." She starts walking off, before she got any further I grabbed her wrist and pulled her to me, giving her a hug. She tensed up, but soon softened up and hugs back. I couldn't help but be engulfed with her cinnamon smelling hair. I don't know what it is about her but she has some kind of affect on me. No one makes me feel like this, like she does. 

 I let go of her and walked away. I wish I knew how to explain this feeling more, its more complicated. I passed by some trees and stepped over tree branches and roots. I feel a little bad leaving Pacifica shocked, I was so caught up in my thoughts I almost trip over a stump. I finally got to a clearing where I can see the Mystery Shack not far form where I was. I jogged up to it, greeted by a yelling I never thought I'd ever hear again. 

I knew that sound very well, only because that sound lead to one thing to the secret room. Mabel is having another sleepover, with Grenda and Candy. Again. Yay. I walk to the living room with a screaming sound, coming for the ones and onlys: Mabel, Grenda and Candy. "There you are bro bro!" Mabel says, face almost full of make-up. "Hey," Grenda  waves. Candy shyly waves after she tucks a random strand of hair behind her ear. "Hey.." I wave, awkwardly. 

"I got something to tell you!" Mabel says excitedly, getting up from behind Grenda who was putting glitter in her hair. "I may or may not have set you up with a date!!" She says bluntly. "What?!?" I was shocked, let alone a little irritated. I don't want Mabel messing with my love life, let alone trying to find some random girl to try and date me. 

"No Mabel, no!" I say firmly. "Come on Dipper! You need a girlfriend!" Mabel pleades, putting her hands together forming them in a ball. "Mabel I don't want you interfering with my love life!" "What love life? All you would be doing is research alone, if not with Uncle Ford!" She's kind of right.... The only relationship I might have is Pacifica, but I don't want to fall for her. I look in Mabel eyes, seeing how much this means to her. I guess she went through a lot of trouble for me, I guess it won't be so bad to just meet the girl..... "Fine..." I replied in frustration.

"Yes, Thank you!! You won't be sorry!" Mabel hugs me with glee. She pulls out her phone and shows me a picture of a smiling girl with long brown hair, and dark eyes. She was wearing a sunny yellow dress that came about to her knees. Theres no doubt in mind that this girl was pretty. "Who's this girl?" I ask in curiosity. "This girl is your DATE" Mabel says the your date a liitle more enthusiastic. "Whats her name?" "Her name is....."