i'll stand by you (R5 fan fiction)

chapter 30 part 2

Chapter 30 (part 2)

"Hey guys you wanna go to the beach?" I heard Rydel say from behind me and Ryland

"Do you want to go babe?" Ryland turned to me asking

"S-sure"

"Great! Who else is coming?" Ryland asked Rydel

"So far...you guys, rocky, ross, and me, i just need to ask Riker"

"Ok...i-i'm g-going to go g-get ready" i said standing up

"i am too"

We both went upstairs while Rydel went to wherever riker was. I walked to Ryland and ross' room with Ryland not far behind, i walked to my bag and looked for a swim suit. I looked through all of it and sighed

"Whats wrong?"

"I-i dont h-have a-a swim suit"

"How bout you ask rydel?"

"G-good i-idea! Thanks b-babe" i ran and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and ran to Rydel's room

I entered her room after i heard her say to come in. I walked in and asked if i could borrow a swim suit

"Yeah sure!" She said skipping to her closet

She pulled out a really cute blue bikini and gave it to me, i then relised that it was Riker's favorite color...

"Uh d-do you h-have a different c-color?"

"Why? you dont like it?"

"I-i do! I-its just...t-thats Riker's favorite...n-never m-mind, i-ill take i-it"

"Ok"

She handed it to me and skipped back to her closet pulling out a pink bikini. I walked to the bathroom and put my bikini on. i quickly walked out running back to Ryland's room. I closed the door locked it and walked to my bag, i pulled some shorts and a shirt over the bathing suit ...i ran out of the bathroom cause i have many scares. I have some on my stomach- before i was pregnant- some on my thighs and where the most scares are, are my wrists and my arms. I grabbed a big sweat shirt from Ryland's closet. I sighed and walked out of the room with my head down. I walked downstairs to the living room where i saw Scott sleeping, i sat down next to him and petted his head softly

"Hey!" i heard someone say from behind me

"Ahh! G-gosh riker! W-warn me b-before y-you t-talk!" I said scared

"Ok? Haha"

He jumped over the couch and sat down next to me, i looked at him and smiled he smiled to. I looked down at my hands 'well this is awkward' i said to myself.

"Sooo...h-how's s-school w-without me?" I asked slowly

"Its good but we all wish you would still come! Its kinda boring"

"Haha y-yeah n-no, i-i dont w-want t-t g-go back to s-school. H-h-homeschooling is b-better for me"

He nodded his head, it was quiet but then he asked me something that caught me off guard he asked:

"Have you been cutting?"

"Uhh w-why do y-you a-ask?"

"Cause...i want you to be safe"

"N-no i h-havent cut for 2 w-weeks" i said quitly

"Can i see your scares?"

"R-riker-"

"Please"

I slowly pulled up the sleeve to the large white sweater that i borrowed from Ryland and showed him my scares, he sighed and kissed my wrist