Forbidden (BDSM Novel)

Chapter36: Lost Chances and Found Ones

People who leave without explanation should stay gone. Like, what the fuck di ba? You cant just come marching back in my life saying bullshit words and bullshit excuses. But as I think of Hunter Petrova and how he cried and how he looked so damn fragile as if he'd break with one single soft touch, I saw a man who is truly sorry. I wanted to tell him its okay, but I'm not that stupid anymore. I learned to be cautious and make men work hard to get the reward. In life, you should be like that. Make men go nuts. Make them realize that you're no damsel in distress, you're the warrior princess who will conquer the dragon. I've learned my mistakes.

"What're your plans?" Edward asked as he looks at me with green puzzled eyes.

"Ignore him,"

He scoffed "As if."

I rolled my eyes "Well? what the hell do you suggest?"

"maybe if he knows you have a boyfriend or that you don't love him anymore."

"Eh," I drank my juice "Will it work?"

"You don't love him anymore... right?" he asked casually but I sensed that hopefulness in his tone.

I didn't answer.

"Alex, please tell me you dont love him anymore." his voice sounds so breakable

"I-" I stuttered "I cant, that would be lying."

he shook his head slightly. "Baby.. please."

Edward begged like Hunter did. I dont know, cant I just love Ed and unlove that bastard who broke my heart? Ed bites his lip, a thing he does when nervous and eyes so sad but hopeful.

I took his hand with my good one. "I dont know, babe." he squeezed it.

"I see, well. are you free tonight?" he smiled, a sad one.

"never too busy for you." I replied, getting up and placing my plate in the sink.

as I turn around, Edward was behind me. Staring. I could only smile. He got this look in his face. He's afraid.

"Come here." He uttered, I wrap my arms around him tight. He did the same. Only tighter. It felt different again. Sometimes he would hug me like this like anytime I would be taken away.

he kissed my head. "I love you, Alex."

I know.

I looked up at Ed. His sad forest eyes asking a question. "I swear, You'll forget that douche bag. Just give me a chance, Alex."

But he didn't know that Hunter is one of a kind. I couldn't just forget him.

"It'll be wrong, babe." I touched his face "I cant use you,"

"I dont give a shit, Alex. I'm willing. Please!" he was now eager, both hands holding my elbow in a tight grip. "You can use me. Rebound mo nalang ako. Okay lang sakin."

"Eddie-"

"Give me a try,"

Edward held my face then kissed my lips softly, I kissed him back.

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"Mrs. Jameson, have you taken your lunch?"

"Alexandria Eliexyr you look bummed today." She said. She was the kind of person who likes to say full names of people and who is very formal. She's originally from Great Britain but they moved to Cali, 9 years ago. She's been staying here for a year now. Once in a month her daughter and son would visit her.