Forbidden (BDSM Novel)

Chapter39: The Reunion

When I was just a a little girl about 8 years old, my father- my late father, although he's not dead, he is dead to me. I'm talking about the father I grew up with, not the monster that hurt my mother. He used to tell me that sometimes we have to make hard decisions because it's for the best. And that it's a sign of growing. My dad said that adults do it all the time, it doesn't always make them happy but sometimes it's really for the best. He told me that when I grow up I'd make a lot of hard decisions, that I won't always make good choices but he hopes I make choices that will benefit not just myself but also the people I care about.

"but dad, how will I know the right choice to make? what if I chose the bad one?" I asked worried. He smiled a little, almost sadly.

Dad continued to brush my hair softly. "Honey, we'll always, always make mistakes. None of us is perfect. But what matters is the lesson you learned in those mistakes we made."

"Hmm. I hope I never make a mistake."

"well, that's impossible, honey. But I wanna let you know that it's okay to make mistakes. No one expects you to be perfect in this family. We have plenty of room to grow. Like your mom's little flowers." he chuckles. "you like those, right?"

"I do! I do love them! roses are my favorite."

"I know. They used to be just a seed, then if given enough water and sunlight-"

"... And pep talk. Mom talks to them. Oh! And also love! Lots and lots of love!"

"yes. Lots of love." Dad smiled. "you have all of that, we love you so much, honey. We'll still love you even if you make mistakes."

"Ellie! Hey." Hunter's voice startled me out of my reminiscing. "Where were you?"

I was just brusing my hair, thinking of Edward's reaction after I told him that I chose Hunter. I just- I couldn't do it.

"I uh, I just remembered something dad told me when I was just a little girl." I chuckled, but my voice was sad, nostalgic.

"What about?"

"about making bad decisions, and that you guys will always love me no matter what."

Hunter smiled sadly, He didn't said anything about dad he just stood up from my bed pulled me into a tight hug. I need that hug.

"That's still true for me, and for mom." he mumbles. "You got this, Ellie."

"I don't know if I can hurt him, you know? But if I don't break up with him and he remains oblivious, I hurt us all."

I continued to brush my hair then put on some light make up. Then I put on my green dress and a jacket.

Hunter massaged my shoulders, looking at me with worried hazel eyes. "If you're not yet ready..."

"Hunt, if I wait til I'm ready, I'm gonna be waiting for the rest of my life. Ed doesn't deserve this. You don't, either. I gotta do this." I rest my head on his chest, the soft thud of his heartbeat lessen my anxiety. Like a soft reminder that I'm making a decision that will benefit us all.

"I love you, Ellie."

I smiled. "I love you too,"

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After Hunter gave me pep talks, I finally gathered enough courage to drive to Edward's house. I know he'll be there because I just texted him that I'm coming over with pizza and spaghetti, one of our favorites.

To which hw replied: Sure! See ya.

And so here I am at Edward's front door attempting to knock but never finding the bravery to hit my knuckle on the door.