Forbidden (BDSM Novel)

Chapter38: Soulmates

It has been weeks since I've last spoken to Edward, and basically everybody else. Even my best friends tried reaching out to me asking me what the hell is going on. The only one whom I've had a proper conversation is Levi because I asked for an indefinite leave of absence. Edward probably knows that and he probably knows that I'm here in my flat ever since. After a week of calling me and trying to open my door, he gave up. He told me to tell him everything when I'm ready, then he left.

I don't know what to do anymore. Ever since Hunter came back to the picture I've nevee felt so angry and yet he is pulling me. His existence is pulling me towards him and I kept pushing him away. I could not stop thinking about him. And I couldn't stop being so angry and sad and yet happy because he's back. I wanna unlove the monster. I want to turn back time and wish that I shouldn't have agreed with our stupid agreement. None of this would have happened.

*riiiing!*

Right on fucking time. Literally every damn time I think of Hunter, my phone would just ring and when I look at the caller ID, its your royal demon-douche. Is that how it works now? When you think of the devil, he shall annoy you to death with phone calls?

Annoyed, I answered my phone.

"What tha fuck, Hunter? What are you doing? Is this one of your witchy demon shit?!"

"What are you talking about? You were the one who kept thinking about me." Oh I could just imagine the smug look on his face.

"fuck you. Be honest with me Hunter because I am on the verge of loosing my mind! My head hurts and I cannot stop thinking. I haven't slept in days Hunter Petrova. And I am certainly not in the mood for your games!" I screamed, angrily.

"Whoa, Ellie. Calm down. I swear. I had nothing to do with this. Look, can I come over. I'll explain everything."

"No funny business, Petrova!"

"Yes, ma'am!" I heard his smile through the phone and somehow I felt that he was genuine.

Not long enough there was a knock and my door. "Hey it's me." he said softly.

I opened the door "Hello, demon-douche."

"demon-douch? Really?" he laughed genuinely "that's cute."

I rolled my eyes. Hunter scanned me and I feel so insecure because he looks like.. Well, Hunter with his royal glory, however I look like a mere peasant who haven't eaten in days.

"Don't judge, okay? It's been rough." I snapped

He looks concerned. "Ellie, are you okay? You look like shit. I mean, you're still fucking gorgeous though but you're a mess."

I tried not to smile at his compliment "I, uh.. I couldn't sleep. And I don't feel like eating. Honestly Hunter," I looked at him. "I feel so lost."

and then, out of nowhere I felt this tsunami of sadness crash inside me. All those suppressed emotions exploded to a breakdown. He wrapped his arms around me. I'm too weak to fight him, and I dont even want to.

"I'm... I'm so lost, Hunter. I don't know what to do... I feel... guilty because I said yes to Edward." I managed to utter in between sobs. "I love him. I really do.... But Hunter that's so unfair. So fucking unfair. Because I still love you." I cried harder.

I felt his arms tightened around me, and his lips on my head. "I want to unlove you." I looked up. "you're doing this to me. Why are you doing this to me, Hunt?"

"Ellie.. I-" he said, crying.

"I love you. I cant stop myself from loving you. And my heart literally aches to be with you. And I hate that!"