Insanity is what makes us sane // Samgladiator meets Mystreet

Chapter 11: More about me

Third person

Sam looked over his shoulder to see Laurence flutter his eyes open. He yawned lazily and stretched out his long arms. His gaze fell onto Sam, who had dark rings under his blood shot eyes. "Laurence," Sam said as he lifted his head up. The brown haired boy hummed in response to his name. "Can I ask you something?" Sam questioned as he met the eyes of the boy next to him. Laurence nodded as he shut his eyes and let out a smaller yawn. "Honestly, why do you dislike me so much?" Sam asked as he continued to stare at the half awake boy. The question caught Laurence off guard. "Um... because you just seem so close to Aph," He said as he scratched the back of his neck and glanced side ways. Sam's glassy, brown eyes expanded at the statement. He didn't realize that was the reason Laurence disliked him. He seemed like the type that would go for a more classy girl. Well, for Sam anyway. "I would never date Aph," Sam said plainly and a little to sharply. He knew that Aph was right. That she would be the only one that would cover him. So he decided to make more friends to help him. 

"You've slept in the same bed as her," Laurence replied as he stood from his surprisingly comfortable sleeping space on the floor. "So?" Sam asked with a shrug of the shoulders, "She is basically my sister," Sam said as he laid back onto the couch. "You don't seem to have a problem with Aaron," Sam said as he stared up at the ceiling. "That is because I know Aaron would treat her properly and protect her," Laurence stated as he sat him self down on the arm rest of the couch. "I doubt that," Sam mumbled under his breath. "Anyway, it is Aphmau's call to make, she basically has you all wrapped around her finger," Sam accidentally said as he forgot to bite his tongue.

"What do you mean by that exactly," Laurence asked as he arched his right eye brow. Sam sighed in defeat. He was in way to deep now, there was no going back. "I am just saying that if by some miracle she decided that she some how had a thing for you, that you would probably say yes," Sam said before continuing, "So if she wanted anything done, you would do it right away," Sam said whilst a mischievous grin crept onto his face, "And there is no  limitations to anything, let your imagination do the talking," Sam said as he glanced over to the bewildered Laurence. "She could be married to about nine different people, yet you would still be willing to help her, hoping that one day Senpei will notice you," Sam rambled.

Laurence was unsure on how to reply. Deep down he knew that Sam was right but he would never let him have the satisfaction. Instead he lightly shook his head. "Believe what you want to believe," He called back as he walked towards the kitchen. "Don't worry, I will," Sam called back sarcastically. As he made them some hot chocolate, Laurence could not help but wonder 'How?
Sam had been there for a few days yet he seemed to know Laurence better than he knew himself. Sam knew that Laurence was at the will of Aphmau along with Aaron. He also spent the most time with her yet he did not wish to fall in love with her. Sam had said it so flatly, so sharply it seemed like he meant it. However, it didn't all add up. But who was Laurence to question what relationships she had and with who?

Laurence soon returned to the living room. Sam had moved his legs so he could sit beside him. Laurence maneuvered his way round his sleeping, white haired room mate. He gently sat down the two decorated mugs onto the coffee table. "Since you have been here, we really have not learned anything about you," Laurence realized as he lifted the steaming drink to his mouth. "I just didn't think anyone would care, to be honest," Sam said sadly as he lowered his gaze. "Well, now I do," Laurence said as he stared at Sam expectantly. Silence rang through the house for a few moments. Sam looked back up and was met by bright blue eyes. He allowed the breath he did not know he was holding, escape his mouth, before mumbling, "Fine."

WARNING: Contains swearing

Maybe I've been slipping back, heading south, carsick on a Tuesday
Missing cash, blacking out, heartless in a few ways
Shit for luck, elbows shredded, I held things steady like too late
Please calm the fuck down, I'll do whatever you say
I get it, I get it, I'm living too hard and it's time that I stop it
But rising on up and then tumbling down well it's part of the process
Bar tabs on a hot night in a cold basement
You say I'm crazy but I feel amazing

My mother told me that the world has got it's plans
I wanna hold 'em 'til they burn right through my hands
Don't ask me questions cause I'm tired of confessing
And I know that it's not much to say but I swear that I'd like to changeI can't sleep, I hope I stay awake
'Cause I've been running, running, running all day
Long nights, no peace, I feel like everybody's eyes on meI can't sleep, I hope I stay awake
'Cause I've been running, running, running all day
Long nights, no peace, I feel like everybody's eyes on me

I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep

Maybe I've been freaking out, moving quick, burning the wick at both ends
Screaming loud, stupid shit, scaring all of my old friends
Fell down on Bedford, hope that it's not broken
Safe to say I might have had too much of some of these potions
I love you so much, I'm staying here all night
Don't want to get up, I don't want to stop, I don't want to close my eyes
I'd rather not give a fuck and end up with some scars
The night's just long enough for me to build it all and let it fall apart

My mother told me that the world has got it's plans
I wanna hold 'em 'til they burn right through my hands
Don't ask me questions cause I'm tired of confessing
And I know that it's not much to say but I swear that I'd like to changeI can't sleep, I hope I stay awake
'Cause I've been running, running, running all day
Long nights, no peace, I feel like everybody's eyes on meI can't sleep, I hope I stay awake
'Cause I've been running, running, running all day
Long nights, no peace, I feel like everybody's eyes on me

I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleepI can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep

My mother told me that the world has got it's plans
I wanna hold 'em 'til they burn right through my hands