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✯ E V E L Y N ✯
"Please don't say anything. I'll tell my parents tonight," I tell Jesse over the phone in a hushed tone.
There's a long silence. "Are you sure you'll tell them?"
"I swear I will," I say, crossing my fingers and wondering why I'm such a bad person.
He lets out a heavy sigh on the other side of the line. "Okay, then. You'll be okay on your own? Or do you want me to come around and help break the news?"
I don't deserve someone like him. "It's alright, I'll do it alone. You've already done more than you should have, and I can't thank you enough," I murmur sincerely, staring down at my lilac toenails.
"Evelyn . . . you know I'm always here if you need me. Call or text me and I'll be right over, okay?"
I nod. "Okay. Guess I'll see you in school, then."
"I guess you will. Bye." We exchange goodbyes before he hangs up.
A week. It's been a week since that episode, and I haven't told anyone yet. And I don't plan to. If I do, the only thing Eva will do is arrange more sessions with Dr. Paige, maybe even send me to a psych ward and be on suicide watch, and Charlie will just watch me from the sidelines with disappointment clear as day on his face.
I sigh heavily, lifting the sleeves of my baggy sweatshirt to look at my new bandages. My cuts are cleaned and covered, but I'd say by now they've scabbed over. In the next couple of months or year they'll just be fading marks of a failed suicide attempt.
I stare at the ceiling for a while, the sounds of nightlife echoing around me. Charlie and Eva are in bed, and I should be tired but I'm not. I need to hear someone's voice.
I find the number in my recently called list and press Dial. The ringing tone goes on for five seconds before someone picks up.
"Lio?"
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♚ J E S S E ♚
"Four months.
"It's been four months since you agreed to do it. And you still haven't made a move.
"Preston is getting pissed about this. Allen - I'm pretty sure the next time he sees you he's going to break your face. Doesn't matter that you were suspended for a week while he got four days; after what you did to him, no doubt he's plotting his revenge."
