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We've been home from Australia for two weeks now and... Kyle and I aren't speaking. I text and FaceTime with Jess a lot like almost everyday.

"Good morning honey" Danneel says to me kissing my cheek.

"D, I just wanted to let you know that the Padaleckis are coming over in an hour." Dad says to me

"K." I say nonchalantly

"That doesn't bother you?" Cassidi asked me

"Why would it?" I say

"Well because something obviously happened between you and Kyle in Australia." Mom says

"Yeah and you won't talk to me or your mom about it" dad says

"Yeah or me. Your sister." Cassidi says "your built in best friend" she fake cries and I give her my rbf.

"It doesn't bother me" I dead pan and grab a bowl of cereal and go out by the pool and lay out on one of the lounge chairs. I finish up my cereal and put my headphones in and take off my shirt and shorts and am laying out in my bikini. A little while later I see a shadow over me blocking my sun and squint my eyes open.

"You might need this" Kyle says throwing sunscreen at me. "Ya know UV rays and all" he continues at an attempt of conversation.

"Thanks" I say with a weak smile.

"Kyle" I say at the same time as he says "Diana" and we both chuckle slightly and he sits down at the feet part of my chair.

"Diana. I...." Kyle stutters.

"Please don't...  I can't" I say and he gets up with a huff.

"Right... whatever." He says and walks away. I quickly pull my big shirt over my body and run inside after him.

"Kyle please don't be mad at me!" I shout to him and he quickly turns around facing me and I jump back a bit.

"Why! Why shouldn't I be absolutely pissed at you? I try and talk to you about... the thing" he says and calls the kiss the thing in front of our families. I cross my arms and look down, "and you jut shoot me down everytime. You won't even talk to me!" He shouts in frustration.

"Let's go somewhere okay? I don't want to do this here" I plead but he doesn't care

"No. Okay. I'm not hiding anything I don't care if they hear." He says to me and I roll my eyes.

"Kyle" I sigh "I don't understand why you are still mad at me. I've apologized like a million times."

"Yeah. You don't get it. And you never do. You know why? Because you are always so caught up in what's going on with Cassidi that you never take a minute to think about you or anyone else for that matter." He yells at me and I just stare at him dumbfounded. "Whatever I'm leaving" he says and walks out of the house.

"Maybe we should've just stayed not talking" I say to mom, dad, my sisters, gen, Jared, shep, and Adam. But mainly to myself.

"Didi" mom says to me "it would be better if you two would talk things through. Find out why he's mad at you. And then tell him how you feel"

"I agree with your mom small fry" dad says putting his arm around me.

"No. I already know why he's mad at me." I say

"I really don't think you do" Jared says to me. I look over at Jared when he says that and shake my head.

"Then please enlighten me" I snap

"Diana" Mom and Dad both scold.

"Sorry" I say and Jared nods

"Its not for any of us to say" Jared informs me

"Wait so all of you know?" I ask and they hesitantly nod their heads.

"Then why have you guys been acting like you didn't know we kissed in Australia then?" I ask mom dad and Cassidi.

"You what!" Everyone in the room exclaims and I get really confused.

"What? You all just said you knew." I say

"Yeah not that! He's upset about something else." Cass says. With this I grab the car keys and my purse and drive to the Padalecki house. Where I'm guessing Kyle went. I pull into the driveway and walk into their house. I walk into the living room where I find Kyle watching a movie and laying down.

"Hi" I say and he looks at me and looks back at the tv. I walk in front of him and then sit down on the couch next to him and he sits up and puts his head in his hands. "Tell me." I say softly

"Diana-"

"Please... just tell me" He looks up at me, meeting my eyes and shaking his head.

"I love you" He breathes out. I reach out and take his hand.

"I love you too" I say crying and he smiles. "But, we can't. At least not now."

"What?"

"I... I'm finally becoming me again. I haven't been me for a long time. I know its hard to understand. And I hope you never do... understand. But when my sisters and I lost our mom... I lost a part of me. I dropped things I loved like music. And now its my job to make sure Cassidi and Rose are okay. I'm not in a place to have someone else so involved in my life."

"Your sisters aren't your responsibility Diana"

"Yeah. They are. They always have been and always will be my top priority." I explain "How about this. Maybe one day I'll be ready to be with you. But for now. You live your life and I live mine. We will always know that we are their for eachother. But as friends for now. Right now you go and date other people go play football and party and ace chemistry." I giggle sadly "And I'll do the same. And hopefully one day. We will find our way to eachother"

"And that's the deal"

"That's the deal" I say and he nods and hugs me.