To Dream of Malachite (Human Lapis X Jasper)

Monday Dysphoria and the New Kid

Monday morning was something certainly strange- there was crying and the new kid and- Y'know I'll get into that in a moment. First I just want to say that after the Sunday Morning experience, we left the guest room to find Brian just getting home from driving Amethyst and Peridot to their houses. Brian then drove us home after stopping to buy us some breakfast (Brian told us not to tell Ames that we got breakfast because Jasper's his favourite niece).We went to our own houses and didn't speak to each other after that aside from our routinely goodnight texts.
Okay so Monday morning- let's start with the dream I woke up to. My dream had been completely normal before then. I had been sitting around on a beach on some tropical island with these rad Watemelon people that all kinda looked the same then it happened- what's the 'it' you ask? I'll tell you. Suddenly all I heard was screaming, I turned around to see people running towards me- regular human people to be clear- over a hill... but from what? Just then heavy stomps welcomed a large shadow as the face I recognized as Malachite appeared over the horizon. She smirked wickedly and let out her horrendous laugh as she raised her hand up. I cowered down in fear,  waiting for her to strike... when suddenly...  she turned into a baby? A tiny squirming Malachite- screaming and crying in a diaper and bonnet on the ground no larger than one of the watermelon people. She stopped her cries and looked me in the eye with a smirk and a wink before she started wailing again. I woke up shortly after that- very confused.
I got out of bed and chose an outfit- blue and black flannel with a plain grey tank top and some black skinny jeans- before heading to the bathroom to take a quick shower. It was only once I was in the shower bending over washing my legs that I realized how sore I really was from yesterday's little activity. Everything between my belly-button and my knees burned. I finished up my shower and quickly dressed myself before making my way downstairs for breakfast. Mom and dad weren't there, they're out of town until Wednesday, so I had to come up with my own breakfast- not that it was unusual I do so. I settled of some Frosted Flakes and a slice of buttered toast. Boring, I know.
I got my stuff ready before I walked out to the bus stop, where Amethyst was waiting as usual. I guess I was walking a little off because she almost immediately asked "Hey Lap- what's wrong?"
"Hm?" I hummed "Oh... just a little sore down under."
The reason immediately clicked in her mind "No waaaay.... you got ass this weekend?!" I blushed and nodded . She had more to ask "When?!"
"Sunday morning...." I responded quietly
"Yesterday?! Who?!" She questioned
I rose a brow slightly insulted that she'd asked that "W-Who do you think?!"
"Jasper?" I nodded "Seriously?!" I nodded again "She let you come onto her?!"
I blushed more "Actually... she kinda came onto me..."
"No way!" She said surprised "how was it?"
"Umm.... awkward? But... really good...fun." I said with a shrug "Can you stop asking so many questions please... it's a little uncomfortable..."
"Oh-aight I get it." She waved it off "but I just can't believe it- you and Jasper did it?! Seriously? No joke?" I nodded again. She let out a low whistle "daaayuum"
The bus turned the corner and stopped in front of us, we got on and found our seats. No one really talked much this morning. We were all still tired from the weekend.
English was lame. Nothing noteworthy happened aside from the taking of notes. We just watched a lame movie that was based off a book we read not long ago and noted how it was different from the book.
Drama.... Jasper showed up late and was placed in another group. Not much happened.
Math was where I noticed something off. Jasper sat in the usual spot next to me, but didn't talk much- in fact it seemed like she was avoiding conversation. This is basically what happened.
"Hi!" I said as she approached her seat.
"...oh... hey." She sat down.
"How's it going?" I asked
"Meh" she shrugged and put in her earphones.
And that's it.
At lunch I saw Jasper avoiding the table. She ate near the cafeteria door. She locked eyes with me briefly, she didn't smile, or wave or anything. She ducked her head down before running out for a smoke. That's when it fully clicked- she was specifically avoiding me! Why? I was a little upset and considering avoiding her too- until I saw those asshole fuckboys follow her out with a look of mischief about them. I realized really quickly I couldn't avoid or ignore Jasper for a second, especially when the possibility of danger was that close behind her. I got up and followed after them.
When I got outside Jasper was leaning against the wall, earbuds in, puffing on a cigarette. The fuckboys we're far away, talking with low voices obviously not wanting Jasp to hear. None of them saw me around the corner listening in. Unfortunately I didn't hear anything from their mumbling.
One of them- fuckboy #1 approached Jasper, trying to look all big and tough, his friend behind him to the right and a new one I didn't recognize on behind to the left. Jasper rolled her eyes and took out an ear bud "What?"
The boy smirked and pointed at his new friend behind him on the left "Obsidian here tells me you were seen at that snowflake party on the weekend."
Obsidian blushed lightly and waved awkwardly.
"Snowflake party?" Jasper questioned raising a brow.
"That gay-fest shit" the boy rolled his eyes
"Pride? Yeah I went with my girlfriend. What about it kid?" She asked now inspecting her nails, she seemed calm.
Fuckboys #1 snatched Obsidian's phone and held it up to show a picture from the newspaper. "What's on your hands?" He asked cockily
"Gay fake tattoos." She shrugged
"Funny" #1, The leader, continued, zooming in on one of Jasper's hands in the picture "I don't remember the gay flag being pink white and blue.... oh wait... That's a tranny flag!"
"So....?" Jasper questioned "Doesn't mean anything."
"It does- It means you're a fucking tranny!"
Jasper took a final puff of her cigarette and threw it down to stomp it out. "Y'know for a straight asshole you sure know your queer flags. Like what? Do you study the LGBT wiki page in your spare time kid? It's almost like you're hiding something."
" I ain't no fag like you!" The kid said defensively
"Oh so you're compensating for something then?"
His friends both 'Ooo'd'. He looked insulted "What's that supposed to mean?!"
Jasper shrugged "Oh nothing kid. I'm just saying that by the sounds of things, you're just scared a chick might have a larger package than you do."
"So you do have one then!"
Jasper rolled her eyes and didn't respond instead she turned for the door.
The boy shoved her "Yo He-she! Answer me!"
Jasper turned swiftly and got ready to throw a punch and thats when I intervened. "Whoa! Jasper! Calm- let's not get you suspended today!"
"Aww, look Shemale's girlfriend to the rescue!" #2 laughed joining into the conversation "Big-boy can't fight your own battles."
"This bitch can fight just fine!" Jasper threatened "Lapis screw off. Momma's got some asses to beat!"
"Jasper no! Chill out!" I said "You don't want to get in trouble do you?"
"I already got into you didn't I?! Fuck off Lapis!"
"Excuse me?! Jasper what's your deal today? Calm yourself!"
The boys who'd previously been teasing and taunting slinked away from the scene probably confused and only slightly afraid.
"No! Fuck off!"
"I'm trying to help you! Stop being such a ridiculous fucking dick!"
That was Jasper's trigger. She shoved me down to the dirt and ran. I sat there on the ground in shock for a minute wondering what the hell that was all about. I was upset to say the least. Why would she do that?! But then I thought a little deeper about what could be going on. She'd been acting off all day and wouldn't talk to me.... she's been avoiding me since- oh fuck! I think I know what's wrong. I got up and ran in the direction she had gone in. I entered the school and the bell signalling the end of lunch rang. I looked around but I didn't see her in the crowds of students. She must be in class already... but I had to talk to her! I headed upstairs towards her class. I peaked in but she wasn't there... fuck! I ran to check the girls bathrooms, she wasn't in any of them and I was growing very concerned. I decided to try and text her. «Jasper? Where are you?» -Sent 12:54pm
I heard her text tone go off.... from the boys washroom. Oh god...
I look around before letting myself in. The room is empty except one stall so I lock the main door. "Jasper?" I asked
"Go away..." she sighed
I approached the stall door "Jasper.... talk to me... it might help..." she didn't say anything so I tried to start conversation "Why'd you come in the men's room?"
"Because... I have a-" she started and I cut her off
"That doesn't matter- it hasn't before and it doesn't now." I told her
She sighed "You don't understand what I'm going through Lapis... you shouldn't be here."
"Neither should you... and I want to understand.... so please just talk to me..."
There was silence for a long moment before she unlocked the stall door and stepped out. We sat on the floor against the wall. Jasper ran a hand through her hair "I guess.... I'm just dysphoric again..."
"And.... I made you feel like that, right?" I asked
"What?! No! You couldn't.... " I could tell she was lying.
"You haven't properly spoken to me in like a day and a half Jasper..."
she sighed "Sorry.... but it's really not you.... it's just what we did... it felt... good- and that confuses me..."
I looked at her sympathetically "Oh. Well... it's sex Jasper... It's supposed to feel good- it doesn't mean anything. You're still my girlfriend regardless of what you've got. Just because you liked the way it felt doesn't mean you're a dude..." she didn't say anything so I talked some more. "And those assholes outside... they don't know anything. They don't know you. They can't tell you what you are..."
"They clocked me..." she said in realization "and I didn't get to shut them up!" She seemed panicked "They're gonna tell people- out me! Everyone will know... oh no..."
I frowned "So what? You were found out... I think you'll be surprised how many people won't care about that around here... I think this is a good time to just embrace it. Be proud! Like yeah you're trans but you're not gonna let that stop you from being happy- your you and you're proud of who you are!"
She smiled softly "We'll see about that... what're you doing after school?"
"Nothing today." I responded
"You wanna come over?" She asked
"Sure."
"Sorry for pushing you..."
"Sorry for calling you a dick..."
"Let's get outta here . Men's rooms are disgusting." She said
We got up shared a brief hug and walked out, almost walking directly into Obsidian- the new kid from what happened outside. His eyes widened and darted back and forth from the boys sign on the door to Jasper's face.
"What're you looking at punk?!" Jasper said threateningly.
The boy put his arms up to cover his face "Ah-nothing!"
Jasper said nothing and began to walk away. I followed. We only got a few steps away before we heard him speak again "Um S-sorry... I-I didn't think they'd say that stuff..."
"Sure. Then why'd you tell them?" She responded
"I thought they were cooler than that.... I-I just moved here, from Virginia, I met them in my fitness class a few days ago..." He sighed "I showed them because I thought it was cool... that kids from our school were so proud of themselves... I guess they misinterpreted... I'm sorry... I actually think you're really cool and brave..."
Jasper looked over her shoulder at Obsidian "You're mocking me aren't you?"
He appeared confused "What? No! I-I wouldn't... I really do think that!"
"Well then... thanks. Also look for better friends. We gotta go." Jasper said and started walking again
The kid nodded "I-I will!" He said "Uh-hold on a sec! Can I ask you something important first?"
"What?" Jasper asked again
"U-um... do you... h-have to use the men's room.... because of-?"
"Huh?" She rose a brow "No- I just knew it'd be empty and went to cry. I usually use the girls bathroom."
The boy seemed relieved "Oh good!- Uh I mean- It'd be really wrong otherwise- well I gotta pee so uh- bye! T-talk later maybe?"
"Don't count on it kid." Jasper said rolling her eyes and continuing on her way to class. Obsidian entered the boys room nervously it seemed... but I didn't think much about it. I caught up to Jasper "He seemed nice." I said
She shrugged "Yeah I guess..."