Why am I stupid enough to even have a crush on someone? I know that they won't like me back. So why do I even care. I fall for someone who doesn't even know I exist. Even if they know me, they don't like me. I'm always the annoying one that he doesn't want to talk to. When I talk to him, it seems like he doesn't want to talk to me. It seems like he feels he's being forced to talk to me. I wish he would just tell me how he feels about me. Then I won't have to worry about thinking about him. If he hates me, then I will get over it. If he's only talking to me because he feels forced, I wish he would tell me. I hate not knowing. I like him so much, but I don't know what he thinks of me. Some days it seems as if he wants nothing to do with me. Other days it seems like he may want to talk to me. I never know. I was so stupid to even put myself through this. I've liked him for so long and only one person knows. I feel bad for putting myself through this. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I didn't like him, or anyone. I've liked him for too long, but I still don't know how he feels about me. How am I supposed to know? If he doesn't want to talk to me, then why doesn't me. Is it really hard to say, "I really don't want to talk to you. I'm not into you."? Is it so hard. I feel as if I'm forcing him to talk to me. Like pity is getting the best of him. It's probably because he knows that I have no one, and maybe he feels bad? Anything can be said to me and I'll think of him in some way. I want to talk to him all of the time, but he doesn't seem to want to talk to me. Why am I so stupid?
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Sadness
RandomThese are the things i wrote when i am depressed or sad. I dont tell anyone my feelings, i just write them and hope someone reads them oneday, so im not alone in my pain.... Jk im just a depressing piece of shiz.... ❤
