after all.. | raura

t h i r t y

i closed my eyes and listened to the lyrics, booming in my ears.

did you lose what won't return? did you love but never learn? the fires out but still it burns.

and no one cares. there's no one there.

did you find it hard to breathe? did you cry so much that you could barely see? in the darkness all alone.

and no one cares, there's no one there.

but did you see the flares in the sky, were you blinded by the light?

"laura" i someone said. i opened my eyes to see rydel. i took an earphone out and gave her a questioning look. "we're gonna board now" she held her hand out. i took it and stood up, grabbing my backpack.

laura's outfit:

ross's outfit:

ross was walking next to me the whole time. but i was too exhausted to even care. i even looked like a mess. i had zero make up on, and my hair was opened, and in its natural state. and obviously, i was wearing my glasses.

i locked ross out of the room last night, again. and cried myself to sleep, again. i haven't talked to him since what happened at the mall.

i let everyone go in before me, and after they did, i went in. i glanced at the ticket, and walked down the aisle, searching for my seat. when i saw where my seat was, all i wanted to do was groan. right next to ross. just what i need right now.

i asked all the lynches to switch with me, but none of them were nice enough. i mean, i love that they treat me like a sister, but right now, i'm not liking it.

because if i was a random stranger, they'd be nice and actually switch places with me. i mentally slap myself and literally walk like a turtle back to my seat.

i just put my earphones in and continue listening to songs. i knew he was staring at me. i could feel it. but i just ignored him and closed my eyes.

"can we talk about it now?" he asked. i pretended like i wasn't listening and went deeper into my seat.

"ladies and gentlemen, we'll be taking off in about five minutes" the captain spoke.

and the 22 hour flight begins.

i don't even know why we're going from new york straight to australia.

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it's been about five hours, and i've finished a book, watched a movie, and wrote some songs. ross tried talking to me, but i just responded with "hm" "okay"

right now, i'm finishing a song. "laura!" he almost shouted. "stop it" he said. i looked up and to him "what" i said, emotionlessly. "that! let me please at least explain."

i sighed and closed my book, and closed the door thing they have in first class.

he closed his too. just so we could get some privacy.

i looked at him, waiting for him to talk.

"laura. we can't fight. especially no right now. i'm sorry, i made a mistake. but i didn't want them to dunk a bucket of cold water on you and get you sick. i had to do it. and i can assure you, i felt nothing. but you're pregnant, and i'm on tour. this is the worst time to fight. please, just let it go"

somehow, he said that in the most sweetest way.

"i-ill try. i just can't get that scene out of my head" i sighed. "are you tired?" he asked. he can always see right through me. "exhausted actually. i haven't slept in the past 3 days" i slid my fingers through my glasses and rubbed my eyes, yawning.

"come here" he grinned. i playfully rolled my eyes and went over the cup holders, to his 'bed'. i fell right in his arms, and for the first time in these past three days, i actually felt comfortable.

i closed my eyes and inhaled his scent. "damn" i mumbled into his chest. he chuckled, kissing my head.

the bed is pretty small, but i am too. so its all good.

for some reason, i felt relieved. i felt relieved that i didn't have to be mad at him anymore. because it's hard. i'm glad i don't have to worry about us breaking up.

yes, i did have some thoughts about us breaking up.

"hey, look at me princess" he whispers. i shift my body, facing him. he slightly smiles, before gently placing his lips on mine. i smile into the kiss.

oh how i've missed the touch of his lips.

he creased my cheek with his thumb. his fingers travel down to my sides and he pokes them. i slap his hand, giggling. i pulled away and looked at him, still giggling. i was so close that i could see every stub of hair on his face.

we just layed there, staring at each other. "damn laur" he smiled. "have i ever told you how gorgeous you are?" his smile stretched.

"a couple of times" i giggled. he hugged me tighter, while i layed my head in his chest, and he buried his face in my neck.

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i know this is short, but i have another chapter coming ;)